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Is it normal that I want to commit suicide when I'm older? I'm convinced that I want to end my own life and decide when I die. Anyone else ever had this thought or feels this way?
I think many people have had this thought. I would only end my own life if I knew it would be the best thing to do at that particular time. Like if I were terminally ill or I had fatal injuries.
I actually agree with you. I have thought about it when I get old. I am married but no kids. It would be after my husband is gone, and my money runs out. His mom is in her 80s and she has Alzheimer's and Dementia. She doesn't know who we are, and it's really hard on him and his siblings. I just know I don't want to be that way.
Are you implying that I don't have regrets? Trust me...I could pave a highway from L.A. to Brooklyn with them. They're part of me. I own them. I'm stronger because of them.
Even the things that become worse change. None of us knows what will happen tomorrow. I don't care who you are, or what you're going through...someone has, or had it worse, and endured.
End it and you'll never...ever know. Thankfully, I didn't go that route 25 years ago. I had a .44 magnum in my mouth, hammer back...in a time when "things kept getting worse," and it seemed like there was no way out.
Since then, the trouble passed. Since then I found love, watched my babies grow in her belly, saw and felt them move inside her. I felt the breath of my newborn children on my cheek.
...if I'd squeezed that trigger...I'd have never experienced those things, and the world would be an entirely different place.
Maybe your situation is more severe...I don't know, but that won't change my opinion. Doesn't matter what you're going through, you can't undo suicide. Even if that means you've extiguished the possibility of regret.
"End it and you'll never...ever know."
Maybe that's exactly what I want. I HATE uncertainty & gambling/wagering.
You're missing my point...all the while willing to gamble that you could miss out on experiences that would fill an empty heart.
-sidenote-
It's never been proven to me that it's possible to be dealt a natural Royal Flush either.
...but obviously, my words are falling on deaf ears.
I've been there too. Looking back...I'm really glad I didn't. At 45, I have a wealth of memories I could never have asked for..and would never have experienced.
Things change. No matter what you're going through...it'll pass. You can right a lot of wrongs. The one's you can't right, add to your experiences, and we all have a list of unrightable wrongs. Haha...I can list a dozen of those that worked out for the better.
You can't undo sucicide.