Is it normal that i want to become a serial killer?
Okay. So I want to kill people. That is one of the main things that's concerns me on the list of many things that is screwed up about me. At first I thought it was just a form of coping with the horrific event of my grandmothers passing right infront of me. (Trust me I believed this was the culprit for my feelings for a long time since it was a very violent death and I read somewhere that a insane event like that could traumatize people.) But then I realized this started way before my grandmother's passing because of the notes I kept in my diary. my exact words from my diary here: "Is it sad that the only thing that keeps me going are the dreams of killing people who are innocent (if I even get sleep) ?" I know I need help because I have don't sleep because of it and I cut to try to keep these thoughts away. It worked for a while but now it's not doing anything to keep those insane thoughts away. You may call my crazy and I agree with you. I have told my parents but they just brushed it off and gave me sleep medication. How do I stop? Am I completely screwed up in the head?