Is it normal that i want to be raped (and survive)?
This is NOT a sexual fetish question. I want to know what being raped is like so I can empathize with rape victims. I want to know just how much emotional trauma there is so I can form arguments better. I also want my opinions to be accepted, and they only seem to care about people who are raped (they're more sympathetic than to someone saying, "well, if I were hypothetically raped, it wouldn't be as bad..."). Then the people say, "You wouldn't know. If you were raped, you would have a different opinion."
I don't see how this is any worse/different than someone who wants to try something just because they were told they couldn't. Typical social rebellion, eh?