Is it normal that i want to be more depressed, especially when high?

I've been smoking weed for about 2 years now, and initially it makes me happy. About Half an hour afterwards, it's like a part of my mind is trying to do anything it can to make me more depressed. I'll do really stupid shit & take videos of myself doing it so I can watch it again later, sometimes I'll show others. One time I somehow made myself throw up, but it's like a part of me wanted the embarrassment. Basically I try & create reasons to hate myself. Has anyone else ever gotten this??

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  • laurenmmb

    When you first feel the high it makes you happy and laugh because your brain gets flooded with the natural chemical in your body dopmaine, once this rush of happy chemical has settled (maybe 20-50 minutes), you brain has quickly used up all the dopamine so now your running low on happy & laugh chemicals, so you might take a little to stock back up on dopamine and make you feel normal again. Hope this makes sense, but ill tell you now if weed does this to you you should stop using while youre ahead

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  • Freedom_

    No...?

    Worst I've done is regret things I've said or done earlier in the day. And then I let it go.

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  • Arm0se

    Sometimes I feel like I need to be punished for the littlest things, even if it wasn't my fault. Were you abused in the past?

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    • Well my friends have hit me so in a sense, yeah

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