Is it normal that i want to be more depressed, especially when high?
I've been smoking weed for about 2 years now, and initially it makes me happy. About Half an hour afterwards, it's like a part of my mind is trying to do anything it can to make me more depressed. I'll do really stupid shit & take videos of myself doing it so I can watch it again later, sometimes I'll show others. One time I somehow made myself throw up, but it's like a part of me wanted the embarrassment. Basically I try & create reasons to hate myself. Has anyone else ever gotten this??