Is it normal that i want to be abused?
I have always craved being dominated and mistreated by a man. I'v also always felt really guilty about feeling that way, because I know that there are so many people who are hurt and damaged emotionally by those kinds of relationships. I remember this urge starting quite young - 15 - I would fantasize about being hit/slapped/hair pulled as a kind of foreplay. Over a couple of years that progressed to fantasizing about forceful and rough sex and being completely dominated by a man - tied up/restricted/beaten during sex. I have never been abused in the past, verbally or physically, so it doesn't stem from experience. I know its normal for woman to have fantasies, but is it normal for me to desire and crave this kind of physically and sexually abusive relationship?