Is it normal that i want less friendship?
I was accepted into a wonderful school. Like all private schools, it's pricy. I'm paying for my education with debt but a lot of my friends are ridiculously rich.
I noticed that they actually have a bad influence on me when I realized I put much less effort trying to get scholarships or in a work study programs than I normally do. They're just so accustomed to not worrying about money even when it's 40K a year. That the carefreeness has rubbed off on me. Except I don't have the luxury of being carefree about my tuition, so this attitude really hurts me. I admit I fucked up.
Every now and then it's obvious we're on different levels but it just makes things awkward. I'm not a charity case, I'm just not rich.
I didn't get to this school to make friends.
So I looked at my options "fix my attitude while still maintaining friendships" seemed great. I mean the real problem is me an how I reacted. But then I got realistic and remembered that changing yourself isn't easy and normally doesn't work.
"Have less friends and hang out less" didn't seem as fun but definitely would work better. Sophomore year's coming around so the new courses could be my excuse for less friends.
And please no one give me after school special bullshit on picking money over friends. The is a hard, damn good school, and it's EXPENSIVE