Is it normal that i want an apocalypse?
A zombie apocalypse to be exact. It all started with Dawn of Dead, Night of the Living Dead, and those kinds of movies. Then I started watching The Walking Dead. Ever since I began watching those things I have been fascinated with the idea of Zombies overrunning the earth.
I know it's wrong to wish such destruction on humanity, but I can't help it. I know it will probably never happen, but I dream about it happening. I take knives from the kitchen and stalk around in the woods behind my house. I also have a sword, a crossbow, and a Red Rider BB gun, along with hacksaws and other common tools.
It has gotten to the point that I have become paranoid, carrying pocket knives and small screwdrivers in my pocket with me everywhere I go. I have food, water, maps, and other supplies stashed away. I have worked on my cardio and made sure to stay in decent shape, even to the point that I have made an "obstacle course" of sorts. I've practiced picking locks, making tournequets, and other skills I may need to survive.
I know it's wrong for me to think this way, and deep down I don't really want an apocalypse to happen, I just like to pretend. Is this normal? Does anyone else do something similar?