Is it normal that i want a hate relationship with someone?
Sometimes I come across a person that I just hate, and want to compete with as much as possible, and I want them to hate and compete with me as well. But I would hate them in a way where I would also have sexual attraction or "love" for them. I wouldn't want anything (too) bad to happen to them, unless its somehow caused by me. I don't want to over dominate, or for them to over-dominate me, but rather have a sort of shared struggle toward each-other.
I have tried to start a relationship like this before, but my intentions were miscommunicated and they just tried to avoid me.
However, I can still love a person in the regular way, it depends on the kind of person.
Is "loving" someone in this way normal?