Is it normal that i used to masterbate about family members?

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I have been experiencing overwhelming guilt for several years now regarding my past sexual thoughts and fantasies. When I was in my teen years I would sometimes masterbate to thoughts of my own father having sex with a friend's mom from next door and even with my aunt(through marriage). I would also masterbate maybe two or three times to thoughts about my sister having sex with some unrelated guy.

These masturbatory thoughts now utterly sicken and repulse me to no end and I often wonder how it was that I could ever do such things or think such abnormal thoughts. I have not had these thoughts or desires for several years now. I can't even remember when it was that I last masterbated to them. And of course I no longer feel any desire or urge whatsoever to do so ever again as, like I said before, such thoughts fill me with total shame, disgust and revulsion. I still can't believe how my mind ever thought such things, and then to go ahead and masterbate to such thoughts without even attempting to stop myself from doing it is utterly sickening to me in retrospect. And now, worst of all, I have this constant fear that I'm going to be punished for what I have done after I die, and this scares me to no end as well.

Is there anyone out there who can offer any advice and/or thoughts about this dreadful and ongoing mess I have gotten myself into due to me acting on these past abnormal desires?

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  • PeaceOFmine
    8 years ago

    Thanks for the generous comments. But I just want to say that even though the act of masterbation itself is of course completely normal and natural, what I was once masterbating about was/is most definitely NOT normal or natural and THIS is what is continuing to torment me nowadays. But again I thank you for the comforting words you had to say about my particular situation and plight, I really appreciate them.

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  • baronroderick
    8 years ago

    Oh you shouldn't torture yourself about such a question, it's not uncommon for young people having sexual fantasies with someone of their own family, it's pretty natural - the animals do it all the time. The only reason why civil laws and religions forbid that is because human beings can't simply reproduce, our offspring involves too many things, and incest would result in sick children. If you really believe in a god that would punish you everlasting for having natural desires as a kid, what an awful god he is, I pity you. Monotheism has done nothing good for mankind, it's just codification of unnaturalness called "morality". THAT is revolting.

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