Is it normal that i try to fight ocd?

OK,

So I think I have OCD. Let me explain. When I go to bed, I follow this stupid sequence before I'm actually going to sleep. I need to make sure everything is just right or otherwise I think something bad will happen to my family or my pets. During the day I don't really 'suffer' from this. I simply think 'fuck it' and move on, because I'm tired of constantly having to do these stupid things in order to feel right. So what I do is I try to stop doing all of these stupid things before I go to bed as well. I really try to live by the words 'fuck it', but it's extremely hard. Because when I think like that, the other side of me says 'if your pet dies tomorrow it's your fault' or 'you can still fix this before it's too late' and then I just HAVE to do the rituals which is driving me crazy sometimes. During the day I'm too smart for it to believe the idiotic thoughts, but at night.. when I'm in bed.. well, there's nothing else I do then of course, so thinking about what may happen has a larger impact on me.

So is there any other way of getting rid of this stupid disorder? I'm just too smart for this type of shit and I don't have time for it either. I didn't have this problem when I was 0-16 years old. It just started a few years ago. I did have some ridiculous thoughts about death of a loved one when I was younger, but never did anything stupid about it, until now, and I want to get rid of it.
Sometimes I just think: WHY should the stupid rituals of a human individual have such an impact on the death of another? WHY don't animals have this disorder? WHY oh WHY! I'm just a collection of molecules and atoms that behaves in a stupid way sometimes. No way my molecules and atoms will have such an impact on molecules and atoms that aren't directly connected to it. Especially not through thought.

But anyway, I'll leave you guys here to answer yes or no and maybe comment.