Is it normal that i truly despise my mother?

I've always hated my mother, she was always pushy. Since I was a child she would always force me to something I didn't want to do. She was a bitch to me.. But she was never this way around my siblings. She always seemed unfair to me, but when I confronted her she told me otherwise. When me and my siblings were still children we would fight, a lot. And when we end up getting hurt, she would always blame me. Even though I had just defended myself. As I grew older she would always humiliate me in front of my friends and not in a way you might think. She would grab my hair, and shout at me. Make my mouth bleed, for something that had happened a few years before. It would always happen, her beating me up for something that I had already been punished for. She would drill in it my head. I just ignored it. Until my mother started accusing me. Calling me names in front of my friends. Slut, stupid, worthless, pathetic. My friends ended up talking to me about it. And I talked to her. I remember the exact words I told her, 'Mom, why can't you respect me? I respect you in front of your friends.' And she replied, 'You don't deserve respect. Your a slut, useless, unworthy. I will respect you if I want to.' And more stuff like that happened. As I grew, my younger siblings would become more like my mother. Daring to challende me, they would punch me, physically abuse me. And she would turn a blind eye. When they went to far, I decided to defend myself and my mother decides to open her eyes. It's always been unfair to me.