Is it normal that i thought i had to perform oral sex on every male i

growing up in my nieghborhood it seemed that for someone to be your friend or like you, you had to perform oral sex on each other or other sexuall activity. it was every male in our nieghborhood and a lot of females.so for most of the rest of my life i would try to perform oral sex on new friends i would meet esecially if i really liked them. most of them were already "playing these friendship games" and those that weren't loved learning. it got so bad that a lot of us started trying these 'games' on adults and people we looked up to. if i got the chance i would try to perform oral sex on every male i got alone wiith so i could make them feel good and they would love me. most people would be shocked to know the males that would let me (or anybody for that matter) satisfy them sexually if no one will ever know. they always said the same thing:'ok you can do it if it makes you happy and no one knows cause you will be the one in trouble for doing these things'. see when you are molested as a child and you never know its wrong or it isnt found out about most kids think that its love so they try to get love from anyone they can. in my area where i grew up,very few men did not let me play with them nor did they stop me from trying oral sex with them.very very few told me no.i would say 85 to 90% allowed it! its a million wonders i turned out straight. i do get the craving sometime to try it again!