Is it normal that i think that my father's death was a good thing?

He died when I was 3 years old. I don't really remember him. From what my relatives told me, I know that he was an alcoholic. My grandma lived with us and she used to hide all the knives from the kitchen, because he once tried to harm one of us. He once slapped me so hard that I stopped breathing for few seconds. I don't remember that though.

He was the only working person in our family and we were dependent on him. He would spend a lot of money for alcohol and all the remaining money would not be enough for us to live.

One day my uncle came to us and we finally forced him to move out to his mother who lived in a different town. He didn't stop drinking as his mother was also an alcoholic.

One day he came back to his mother's house drunk, lied down on a couch and fell asleep. For some reason there was a lit candle on a table in the same room he was sleeping. It fell down on a carpet and it started burning. He couldn't smell the smoke and he suffocated.

After that, our lives became much better. My mum got a job and we could live without fearing that some alcoholic is going to come back home and threaten us. Therefore I think his death was a good thing, because my life with him would be f***ed up.