Is it normal that i think of members of my family dying?

Actually, I think it is. I used to do that, but I think I quit when I started noticing how quickly everyone is getting older and such possibilities became more likely. Don't worry, it will turn into you wondering what you'd do without them.

I don't know if it's normal, but I said it was because I do the same thing. Sometimes I think so much about the attention I'd receive from that person dying, I don't even think I'd be that sad. I thought I was the only one.

I think this way too, sometimes. It starts out thinking about how sad I would be and thinking what I would do without them, and then it turns to what my reaction would be like if I were in a public place and how I can make myself look as pitiful as possible so people would feel sorry for me. I love my family and don't want them to die at all, but yeah, I do think like that sometimes. Maybe I'm wrong in doing so, lol.