Is it normal that i think like an asshole?
I know this sounds weird but every time I'm alone with my friend I can't help but start touching him some times my thoughts go farther than that I imagine myself forcing sex on him right on spot I want to bite him till he screams. We were drunk once near my place and he had drunk bit too much that he couldn't even walk straight.. I carried him by shoulder and got him to my place (I'm 6'3 and 176 pounds and he is 5'2 and barely 130 pounds), he was still laughing and tossing his arms/slapping me and smiling for no reason, I was happy hearing him laugh and I endured all his punches, when I got home I put him to bed.. after that I couldn't sleep at night knowing that he was in my room all defenseless.. I couldn't control my self so I went on and stripped him, touched him and kissed him but I couldn't bring my self to rape him.. not while he was asleep so I slept out of the room (Couldn't put his cloths back on) in the living room, the next day I was extremely angry on my self for not doing it.. I'm going to tell him everything after my boxing tournament and if he refused I will force him..
I am 19 and my friend is 18.