Is it normal that i think everything is a trap?
Any time someone requests my presence somewhere, I think it's a trap. I come up with numerous logical reasons for why this is a legit concern. Then I start to think of potential excuses and exit strategies if I am indeed trapped so that I'm ahead of the game.
I even get mad at (probably) innocent people for aiding in the trap. If I'm supposed to ride with another person for instance, I get really angry at them if they have revealed even the slightest bit of information about me, our arrival or any other minute detail. I yell at them for being so stupid to give out incriminating info.
Then when it's all over and nothing happened I'm relieved but I still think I was very wise to be prepared and I hope that in the future my associates THINK before offering any information, no matter how benign they think it is.
I don't want to change, I DO want to think this way no matter how many times I end up being wrong. I couldn't imagine life without thinking this way.
IIN?