Is it normal that i think about the past too much?

I can relate. A couple of years back I went through a time period where I did horrible things and was a horrible person. The good thing, I guess, was that I was always black out drunk when I did these horrible things so I only remember bits and pieces. People who were around me back then sometimes will bring up things that I did and yet I am still clueless and glad I don't remember.

For the most part, the things I do remember I just shove from my mind. When a thought pops up, I tell myself it wasn't me and I am NOT that person. I avoid conversations, people, and anything else that remind me of who I once was.

I have a similar story I did alot of things I was not proud of. I moved out of my parents house at 16 and was very lost and confused which led me to make alot of mistakes. I think maybe you should find a therapist or a good trusting freind that you can talk to. Once you get everything out and talk about it you will feel much better. There is nothing that you can do to change what you did so you have to just tell yourself your a better person now and not let the past get you down. Live in the now not the past.

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I have a troubled past and it still makes me act in ways that I regret but, more often than not, I'm so anxious not to repeat behaviours that I'm ashamed of, I tend to over-correct the pendulum and be overly nice or overly liberal. The way I look at it, I'm not hurting anyone but myself when I refuse to put myself first.

You sound like you're on the same path. Your past is part of you but it sounds like you're dealing with it by refusing to let it be part of your present. I understand completely, and understand your anxiety. I don't think you'll always be able to keep it under wraps (in the same way I don't) but trying hard towards that end is certainly no sin.

I'd sooner live in a world with a million people like you than with one person who just doesn't care.

You seem like a very interesting person to talk to. I have a very troubled past also. The thing is that I can't move on. I'm always stuck in the past. I hate the past yet strangely I miss some of it- not all of it. It's really confusing. Just be glad that you are over it and on your feet now! That's much more than I can say for myself so congratulations!!!

It will probably go away with time. Just keep being a good person and living a healthy lifestyle. People will get to know the new you and not care about the past, you will move on. Any time you feel shitty, do something to take your mind off of it like going on a walk, go to a coffee shop or shopping. I just like to go look at things in stores when I feel bad. It takes my mind off of things and I'm out doing something.

I think if you did something wrong to someone, you should apologize. Just right all your wrongs and just move on.

You're right, you should be happy now. You've moved on and you can look toward the future. Given the story's lack of real detail, that's really about all the advice I can give.