Is it normal that i sometimes fantasize being a serial killer?

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Sometimes I think about the concept of being a serial killer. I am enthralled with the idea. I calculate in my mind a scenario where I am a serial killer, calculatingly killing my victims through non-painful methods. I am very fascinated with criminology, psychology and everything of that nature. I am striving to be a criminal psychologist. I see myself in my fantasy as being both a serial killer and a criminal profiler trying to track down people like me. The concept is very appealing to me. I love blood -- the way it looks, feels, and tastes, but feel sick with grisly scenes. That said, I am, yet, enthralled by anime depicted gore at the same time as feeling physically sick from it. I know that in itself may sound silly, but in time, I don't know if that will cross to a real life fascination. I imagine myself systematically planning out capturing and alluding the authorities over and over and causing public stirs and creating a name for myself that people will write about. I fantasize having my own alias. Overall, I love the concept of being a serial killer and all it comes with. I know this probably is not normal, but as this is anonymous, I feel I have nothing to lose? More than anything, I'm just looking for thoughts and opinions on the entire concept, or just bits and pieces of it -- whatever you have to offer?

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  • Mr.Hate
    10 years ago

    I admire the way you think.

    You are not alone, just don't "Act" out on the nasty stuff that goes on in your head, and if you do you are sick in the head.

    Now get the hell away from here and stay away from my fucking house!

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  • sickness
    10 years ago

    Kill the ones who need to be killed.The public knows who they are, but still there needs to be a panel of judges because you can't very well go out and kill the guy who cut in front of you in a line or something related. Right?

    You gotta make the world a better place. If you don't you're just messing it up even worse.

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  • purple1498
    10 years ago

    I hate people passionately. I do it all the time :)
    (not literally kill people haha)

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  • Zucchera
    10 years ago

    I'm also fascinated with serial killers, though I get terrified when I read about them. The idea of actually killing someone holds literally zero interest for me [I get faint and sick when people are in pain, even though I'm significantly sociopathic, and I firmly believe that killing is wrong] but the idea of playing with a body after it's dead is exciting! Especially without all that gross formaldehyde they put in the corpses you dissect in biology. I'm planning on going into criminal forensics or mortuary science [or both!].

    I think it's pretty normal to be fascinated by the idea of infamy. And especially for clever people, the idea of being infamous for what is essentially a puzzle with high stakes... Yeah. I don't think you're weird in the traditional meaning of the term.

    As long as you don't actually go out and kill anyone . _.

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  • epic562
    10 years ago

    I suggest watching the film "how to be a serial killer" or "god bless america" a few times... weigh the pro's and cons and go from there.

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  • smashingpumpkins
    10 years ago

    You'reeee kinda sexy

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  • BunFun
    10 years ago

    I founded a gore community and we often plan together a mass slaughter of African children just for the shits and giggles.

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  • DolphinDevil
    10 years ago

    Well killing people has never been much of a question to me but after I watched both Animes, Elfen Lied and Death Note (You should definitely check them out ♥) I am thinking about what I'd do if I had the ability to just kill people...

    I don't feel the need to kill people or would be fascinated to be a serial killer, though I probably wouldn't hesitate to kill when it was necessary...

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      Ah, Death Note. I very much love that series. I obsessed over it for the longest time, but I'm still very much enthralled with it, even now. Death Note is incredibly original and a very great series. I have been directed to "Elfen Lied" before and I'm wanting to look into it as well. I find myself being a conflicting mix between the personalities of both the protagonist and the antagonist of Death Note. I admire them both greatly.

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      • DolphinDevil
        10 years ago

        I cannot really say who's supposed to be the protagonist and who's supposed to be the antagonist since it isn't really obvious...

        I just don't like Light and cannot understand his motives etc.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          10 years ago

          There were instances where it was unfathomable to me that Light would abandon all his ties to the ones he was close to -- but then again, was everything a ruse to begin with? Did he actually never care for his family, and the acceptance and discovery of the Note only accentuate his ability to use them? No doubt that the power he obtained from the mere psychological high he received from just having the Note within his hand was, if you'd wish to say, "corrupting."

          Albeit, I have posted this topic but, there are lengths I would not dare embrace that Light embraced within both of his arms. Perhaps it would be the weakness that would undo anyone if they did not become the same person as Light and maybe, just perhaps, it would be the only way one would ever not find the shadow of death whispering to them inside of a federal institute.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    I dated two men. One wanted to kill, and one wanted to interrogate killers. I fantasized about them meeting.

    I don't know what to say, to your post. A serial killer is horrible, but killing people in a war is honorable.

    Many civilizations have practiced it.

    Obviously, no one wants to be killed. I think that's why it's considered to be so abhorrent.

    Other animals do it, even for food.

    If many creatures do it, I don't consider it to be unnatural.

    It's a very tough issue, morally, ethically, personally, spiritually.

    Abortion is killing, too, isn't it? But it's legal.

    It's a very tough issue indeed.

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    • [Old Memory]
      10 years ago

      You sound kinda familiar. Is this your first time on IIN?

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      • Anonymous Post Author
        10 years ago

        You are right. I don't believe I could morally justify such a thing no matter how hard I tried. I personally believe that no serial killer ever could ever completely justify what they did. They accepted it, perhaps, but never justified it. I do not believe in abortion as well, and I'd never imagine killing children, born or unborn (if you wish to make a distinction between them).

        As for me sounding familiar... Well, I don't believe we have met? I only just created this account. Do I sound like someone you know?

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        • [Old Memory]
          10 years ago

          Um, well, so does that mean you're gonna kill stuff or not?

          A little bit, but hey, if you're new, cool.

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          • Anonymous Post Author
            10 years ago

            Heh, fortunately, the desire has not been as strong recently as it was at one point in time -- if this answers your question.

            Pleasured.

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  • q1w2e3
    10 years ago

    Too much dexter? Don't act on your whims and desires or you might end up spending the rest of your live behind bars. Movie and reality is different.

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  • Eveyana
    10 years ago

    Someone watches too much Hannibal, methinks.

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  • Mikki_Dee's
    10 years ago

    Start offering people you hate a Double Quarter Pounder with cheese. They're not addictive and they don't lead to obesity and heart disease either.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    10 years ago

    No i wouldn't say its normal but hey people have stranger thoughts i guess.,

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  • LeatherbackSeaTurtleIsABadass
    10 years ago

    Pretty normal, just as long as you don't actually go and kill people. Sometimes I fantasize about being a serial killer who's been caught and is in death row. I think it's interesting to know how they feel after they've committed the crime. You should read "In Cold Blood"

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  • Shackleford96
    10 years ago

    How smart are you?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      10 years ago

      I haven't officially taken an Intelligence Quotient, as I have not had a desire or necessity to up until now, but I graduated with high honors from my high school and have a high expectation for myself in my academics. I began taking college courses in my 11th grade of high school. I am finishing up my Associate of Arts degree in a noteworthy college and will probably average an A for my college education this far. That said, I consider myself relatively intelligent.

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      • ScooterNyne
        10 years ago

        As a psychology enthusiast myself, I would contribute this... IQ tests are bullshit. And while taking college level classes in the 11th grade is indeed noteworthy, don't take to heart the significance of your GPA or how prestigious the university is that you attend. The educational system is just as bad at predicting intelligence as IQ tests, if not worse.

        As for the normality of these thoughts... Not exactly what the average person thinks about. It depends on how you really are viewing the concept. Are serial killers fascinating to the point where you want to know how they think or do you just want to become one for the thrill?

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        • [Old Memory]
          10 years ago

          I am quite adept in the use of behavioural psychology, I find it quite interesting indeed. Serial crime is a huge interest of mine.

          The OP doesn't seem that genuine though, as the vast majority of serial killings are serial-sexual-homicides. Serial killers usually, abduct, rape, then murder (and the majority strangle their victims to avoid mess and feel greater control). The murder is often just a way of avoiding jail time for the rape and/or torture, sex is the biggest "gain" for the serial killer. Sex and violence are fused together in their minds, the OP certainly doesn't show that kind of pathology. The want to join the FBI and be a serial killer at the same time shows a feeling of powerlessness and a need for attention, he would more likely commit a single homicide, but it would be against someone famous. Like a mark david chapman esque killing.

          Though IQ certainly isn't bullshit, but it may or may not be of help in a career as a serial killer. Mostly they are caught through dumb luck, so it doesn't matter how smart you are because there are always circumstances you can't control (like a witness you didn't notice, or a cop pulling you over for a traffic offense)

          Americas most "successful" serial killer, Gary Ridgeway, had an IQ of 84 so he was a kind of "slow" guy. Yet he ran rings around high IQ killers like Bundy, Gacy and Dahmer, was married, held the same job for over a decade, and stayed on the loose for nearly 20 years. Bundy was very bright with a 125 point IQ, yet he did many stupid things like introducing himself to victims using his real name!

          Gacy had the exact same IQ as I do (118 point) and when he took the lie detector test they said the only time he told the truth was when he stated his name, yet Gary Ridgeway aced it, he was "academically" slow but a highly skilled liar with a great deal of controlled cunning.

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          • misslady1358
            8 years ago

            I just fell head over heels for your brain. So attractive. Like a real life spencer reid from criminal minds.

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          • Anonymous Post Author
            10 years ago

            You brought to light a lot of good points. I found the most interesting to be your concept of why I have these thoughts. I had never assessed that in myself until you posted. But, thinking now, I believe it may be true. I can retrace feelings that I have gone through that would further justify your hypothesis.

            It's flattering as well that you thought my post was interesting and worth while to post such a long reply to it. But, honestly, had someone else posted this topic, I may have been just as inclined to reply in a just as lengthy format.

            Thank you for the input. I can tell that you're very well qualified in your field of study. You've very much impressed me.

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          • ScooterNyne
            10 years ago

            you just made a points in paragraph 4 that support IQ being bullshit. Thank you.

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            • [Old Memory]
              10 years ago

              Not even nearly, I actually only made a point that IQ has nothing to do with your ability to lie well and fool people.

              It doesn't go into any detail about the use of IQ in billions of other things that you need it for, like oh say, mathematics ect, ect, ect.

              IQ isn't bullshit lol, that's why it exists.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          10 years ago

          I agree. Intelligence is difficult to pin down. A more diverse system needs to be created.

          I had imagined not as well. As for my view of the concept -- I believe it's static at best. I have an interest in both. I've always seen myself as being strongly justice-oriented, however the fascination has been there. Perhaps it will always remain just a thought that will never be acted out on. A favorite quote of mine is one by Friedrich Nietzshe: "Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."

          Thanks for the input. It was thought provoking.

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          • [Old Memory]
            10 years ago

            Yeah, Profiler Robert Ressler used that quote in his book "whoever fights monsters"

            Here is a very interesting one from the now executed serial killer David Gore;

            "All of a sudden I realized that I had just done something that separated me from the human race and it was something that could never be undone, I realized that from that point on I could never be like normal people. I must have stood there in that state for 20 minutes. I have never felt an emptiness of self like I did right then and I never will forget that feeling. It was like I crossed over into a realm I could never come back from."

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            • Anonymous Post Author
              10 years ago

              That sounds like a very harrowing realization -- being separated from what you are from the extent of what you've done. I imagine the most horrid thing that was plaguing his mind was guilt -- unmatched guilt and sorrow. If I was afflicted with those feelings, I would probably no longer wish to live.

              Thanks, tommy.

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          • ScooterNyne
            10 years ago

            that's an excellent quote.! And no problem. Glad I could provide some thought.

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