Is it normal that i showered with my dad?

This happened at an early age about 6 or 7 I think because its kind of unclear. I remember me and my dad showering together. I specifically remember him washing my private part. I'm a male and this has always kinda bothered me. I also had numerous gay encounters with friends around 3rd and 4th grade. I feel like this had something to do with the first thing. Another thing I want you to know that in all the sexual encounters blowjobs were part of it I feel so uncomfortable just typing this but what if something else happened with my dad that I don't remember bc I just find it odd that I think about sexual stuff so much, more than usual it seems. I want to know why. Why did my dad do that it feels so wrong and gross. Its not right and I've always been against my dad because he forces me to do things. I mean what if he forced me to like give him a blowjob and I just don't remember it? I know that sounds crazy but it would make sense. It would explain the gay encounters and how I notice and think about sexual things and why I've been against him. Wtf it pisses me off to think that may have happened. Like I just don't know what the fuck to think anymore.