Is it normal that i regret my life?

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Is it normal that I Regret my life?
Im faced with this question I do not love any of my kids and I feel like its wrong I should love them but I regret letting my life come to this I want to know if Im the only one I mean Im not phyco and going to go kill my kids but I dont know what to do anymore I cant find out what I have but is it normal? I was going to be a famouse goddess and I let myself go I gave in I gave up and now look at me I regret everything I have done Im miserable how am I suppose to be a mother when I cant even look at my kids without feeling regret I was dignosed with PPD with each of my kids and I use to use that as an excuse to act bitchy towards them but even that got old after a while I hate it I hate myself I just wish I could take it all back I even divorsed my husband of 7 years and left him a note that basically said I never loved or even liked him and now Im trying to mend my relationship with my brother and just move on I guess thats all that I can do he wouldnt talk to me at all up until I ditched everything and everybody he never liked what I was doing with myself or my life he is a successful and happy machanics shop owner he has partners with racing cars and all kinds of car people he buys cars fixes them up and sales them he has a high in car shop in Los Angeles California for exotic cars he managed to meet his goals and I didnt I even tried suicide about 3 times all together I have even went to a therapist and she tried to put me on meds but they only made it worse I took them behind my Ex Husbands back then I tried to kill myself because the regret is like overwhelming and I dont know what to do anymore I thought that moving to another city would make it easier but it isnt because on my kids birthdays I go crazy and all I can think about is the day they were born how I was feeling and how I should be there now and why am I not what do they think of me do they love me and my oldest knows Im sick my oldest is 13 then I have a 11 year old then a 8 year old then a 6 year old then a 3 year old and now Im desperate for a solution to my problem please anybody help any advise is appreciated!!!

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  • amili
    13 years ago

    Pay attention in English class when they teach about full stops in sentences?

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    • RegretyBetty123
      13 years ago

      Ok so if your not going to help me then dont comment
      I was crying while I was writing this and my hands were cramping!!!

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      13 years ago

      Your not Normal.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Let this be a lesson for others

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  • flyingnostalgia
    9 years ago

    i lost my breath after reading this. i was in need of full stops!

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  • Box
    10 years ago

    Hello, Lory. I'm here to ask you how you are doing. How is your life working out? Have you become happier than 2 years 7 months ago? I really hope you have. :)

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  • LovesLife
    13 years ago

    I almost cried while reading this, it normal to have a stage of of your life where u notice yourself almost analyzing your life thus far, there could be some regrets. Some feeling of accomplishments / achievements. And while it's easy to see our peers doing things that we feel we should or could be doing, WE can make it our own way! Just try your best to be almost completely opposite of your negative thoughts as hard as it sounds. Your kids are your main accomplishments try to get better for them, I wish u well.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    i hope you are helped by this advice if it makes you feel any better you have saved a lot of money (therapy) because these comments are fantastic. Hope you are motivated to undertake some of the self help advised and yes what a lesson to others!

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    • RegretyBetty123
      13 years ago

      Thanks for that....I have been working on it and I am trying my best to not live like that anymore.
      My oldest my son told me the other day he was like "Mom I was at school the other day and this kid was crying and I was like whats wrong and he was like my mom is mad at me and dont want to talk to me anymore and I said why what did you do and he said I accedintly broke the tv and he said Mom I know you love me way more than a tv." I cried really hard because I knew I didnt but Im working on it. It really helps talking to somebody or alot of somebodys!
      thanks lory

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  • Elegy
    13 years ago

    I understand you.Stupid people please dont write silly comments.Sometimes I wonder do you care and why are you here? to say whos grammar is bad where they need to put full stops?Well my dear you are in depression try to look at life from another side.Stop it.You have kids many people dream to have kids but they cant God gave you so keep them.If you had goals,dreams that you couldnt bring into life then try to do it now.Find meanings, you are just tired.Its never late.You regret its bad but it can be worse if you dont take any steps.Think that people face worse diffculties like losing someone etc.Count the good things you have and find advantages.Good luck

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    • RegretyBetty123
      13 years ago

      Thank You so much

      I just wish I didnt give up on myself so quickly
      like I love my kids but then I dont I guess I just need to let go of the old me and accept that this is who I am now

      but it hurts because nobody wants me and cares
      They all think Im crazy
      like my ex husband is so hurt that I wrote him that letter and apart of me wants to just accept my new life (Its not really new 13 years old) but then again apart of me wants to drop everything and go after my goals before its to late

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    im having feelings of this but more as in everyone i know if that makes sense im a schizo so its just life for me

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  • Audreck
    13 years ago

    I think that for some women, being a housewife is all they know to be. In doing so they are placed in the position where they question themselves. Is this all I'm good for? Is this all my life will ever amount to? With as many children that you have, it makes it seem as you are meant to stay at home and raise them. What happens is, women who find themselves in this situation reflect a resentment towards their children, blaming them for their unacomplished goals and dreams. You are not alone, what you are is, severely depressed and overwhelmed with a mixture of unresolved feelings. You need to quit feeling that there isn't much to get out of this life and being selfish. Your Children need you to nurture them. Ejoy them while you have them, live thru them, before they too, are a major regret of your past.

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    • RegretyBetty123
      13 years ago

      I understand that but like I even try to change my attitude and like think about how much I do love my kids

      I even started visiting them regularly and then I have been talking to the dads
      and I have even accepted that this is my life I cant change it just move on from it and try my best to enjoy the rest of my life

      but no matter how much I try

      the constant regret

      maybe nobody knows how bad it is

      like I will go to Starbucks and get something then after I pay I want to cry because I start thinking about how I could be here buying the same drink but be the person that I want to so then I get mad and dont even want the damn drink anymore so with everything I do it haunts me and I have already forgiven myself and moved on and tried to make things better and changed my attitude I have gotten over the regret itself but the feeling still haunts me

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  • ms_funion
    13 years ago

    I feel for you dear. I wish I knew the words of advice to type to make it all go away, but I don't

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