Is it normal that i purposefully seek out disturbing videos to make me cry?

I just purposefully found a video of a girl squashing a baby bunny under a glass pane. I heard the crunch and saw guts come out of the poor thing's mouth, and immediately started sobbing uncontrollably and thinking about how much of a horrible cunt that chick is. I do this periodically, and I'm not sure why. It's always animal abuse videos specifically; mostly pertaining to cats, as I am a cat person. Is this normal, or am I really fucked up?