Is it normal that i punch myself?
I'm worried about what's been going on. My parents got divorced when I was younger, so I have two very different home lives. (No, I'm not trying to whine about my parents splitting up. I know it happens to a lot of people.) My mom is super controlling, and extremely narcissistic. My dad is really laid back and never bothers me about anything. I love my dad and almost never get mad at him, but when I'm at my mom's house, the littlest thing she does will set me off. I know I'm overreacting, but I scream and throw things and I can't help it because I just get so angry. Awhile ago, we had a really big fight, and I ended up cutting. It wasn't a lot, nothing even close to suicidal, but people noticed. I was really ashamed about it, and you can still sort of see the scars. But I never did it after that one time. However, in the past few weeks, whenever we would fight or I would have a bad day, I would punch myself in the face. The first time I did it, it left such a bad bruise that everyone kept asking me about it. But it was easy to lie and say I tripped. I did it again the other night. It wasn't even because I had a bad day, I just felt kind of empty. I can't really explain it well. And sometimes I wish that there was something wrong with me, and I'd have some excuse to talk to a therapist or something. Please, if you have any insight into what I can do to feel better, please tell me.