Is it normal that i punch myself?

I'm worried about what's been going on. My parents got divorced when I was younger, so I have two very different home lives. (No, I'm not trying to whine about my parents splitting up. I know it happens to a lot of people.) My mom is super controlling, and extremely narcissistic. My dad is really laid back and never bothers me about anything. I love my dad and almost never get mad at him, but when I'm at my mom's house, the littlest thing she does will set me off. I know I'm overreacting, but I scream and throw things and I can't help it because I just get so angry. Awhile ago, we had a really big fight, and I ended up cutting. It wasn't a lot, nothing even close to suicidal, but people noticed. I was really ashamed about it, and you can still sort of see the scars. But I never did it after that one time. However, in the past few weeks, whenever we would fight or I would have a bad day, I would punch myself in the face. The first time I did it, it left such a bad bruise that everyone kept asking me about it. But it was easy to lie and say I tripped. I did it again the other night. It wasn't even because I had a bad day, I just felt kind of empty. I can't really explain it well. And sometimes I wish that there was something wrong with me, and I'd have some excuse to talk to a therapist or something. Please, if you have any insight into what I can do to feel better, please tell me.

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Based on 146 votes (48 yes)
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Comments ( 22 )
  • Roundtable1

    Join mma and whoop everybody's ass.

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  • crazymofo326

    Punch Your Self In The Nuts It Help... maybe?

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    • Roundtable1

      Only a girl would say that.

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  • kyanviado

    I get the same way and in a lot of shit for it. I got diagnosed with adjustments disorder. Try to see a specialist who deals with mental disorders

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  • Let me offer you some advice.
    Never hurt yourslef, when there are other, very bad people to hurt instead.

    (even if you don't do it, just thinking can help. Sometimes, the only thing that gets me through is thoughts of revenge.)

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  • phoenix_paradox

    Ive been there... Whenever i get extremely really frustrated, upset, sad, or mad sometimes i have the urge to cut or hit myself. I know is wrong and not normal and im doing well trying to not do it anymore. But i think its a way to release anger, and finding other ways to do it can help you...

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  • of course find someone to listen to you and give constructive advice. During the times you are alone and feel yourself getting angry/stressed/sad go somewhere and run till you feel like dropping, run and cry. it is not as silly as it sounds

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  • maverickeastwood

    We must live in a fucked up world if one has to resort to hurting themselves, nevermind hurting other people. Hope you figure things out and get some help.

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  • Who_Fan4Life

    Ever wonder about the word 'therapist', when separated is The Rapist?!

    Hmmm, weird.

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  • Reptilia

    How about you just punch a wall or bed?invest in a punching bag.
    Not normal. Punching your self cause of the anger cased by your mom is not normal. Heck punching yourself to begin with is not normal!!

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  • Savmagic

    See a therapist. I hated to read this. Shit I'll be your therapist.

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  • Michael137

    Lifting weights usually makes me feel better/less angry, though I'm never that angry where I hit myself so you should probably talk to someone about this as well.

    Hitting yourself is definitely a good enough reason to see a therapist.

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  • Sweetcat

    One word "THERAPIST"!

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  • Risen_beauty

    Seeing a therapist is definitely a very good idea. The sooner you do so, the better.

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  • americanhoney

    Seems to me you DO have an "excuse" to talk to a therapist. If you're close with your father, let him know that sometimes you feel overwhelmed with things, and see if he'll help you find a therapist. If you're a student, your guidence counselor at school may be able to help you find someone as well. Please don't self harm, sweetheart. Good luck to you.

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  • urmomwuzhere

    I'm exactly the same way the only cure for me is booze and loose girls

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    • Roundtable1

      YES!

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  • Who_Fan4Life

    If it's such a problem, start punching other people, to quell the pain.

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    • Roundtable1

      Agreed, fuck em all!

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  • derker

    I punch my groin sometimes... but that's for different reasons ;)
    once broke my hand on a pineapple... didn't even care..

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    • dappled

      I don't know why that's so funny, but it is.

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  • xxxbeautifullybrokenxxx

    I am the same way but I notice that if I get the anger out it goes away so it sounds stupid but get a pillow or something and punch it until you feel better.

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