Is it normal that i often abandon people?

I think it's normal to do that a couple of times in a whole lifetime of relationships. When it's a neverending pattern, then you've got serious problems and you should get some treatment. Not only is it harmful to you, it is harmful for people to know you.

Most of the time people who leave a path of abandoned or destroyed relationships behind them aren't aware it's them with the problem. They almost always find an excuse to absolve themselves of responsibility and justify the ending of those relationships. Their explanations sound logical when told in isolation but if all of the failed relationships were listed off at once it would be shockingly apparent that they are the source of their problems. I don't know if this describes you, I just know this is typical among people who have your problem.

Why do you do it? I would guess you do it to avoid authentic intimacy. You hop from relationship to relationship so that no one will ever truly know the real you. As long as they know only a contolled portion of who you are, you can bask in the glow of being adored. It's that honeymoon phase that happens in all relationships, even friendships. You've learned that when you stick around for longer, you put yourself in a vulnerable position and you're not willing to let that happen.

Empathy might be missing here too, since you're probably hurting most of those people who you use for temporary companionship. people don't enjoy being treated like that. You've been getting away with it, so there's no real deterent to keep you from doing it again.

Imagine you're at a special banquet held in your honor and all of the guests are people you have abandoned from your past. You have to give a 20 minute speech to them. What are you going to say to them? Would you express any remorse?

With all due respect,
Abandoning relationships once they become close is highly prevalent amongst those with personality disorders, namely borderline and narcissistic personality disorders.

There is nothing normal about it.

With all due disrespect, you seem like a huge cowardly piece of moose shit to me.

Well, I had a close guy friend, and I thought he really cared about me and he was a really good friend, until one day, he completely cut me off. He'd sent me a message on facebook telling me he didn't want to be my friend or talk to me anymore and he'd blocked me too. Right before my semester of college was over, so I couldn't even contact him in any way ever again. Nothing even happened to make him do that, that I am aware of, but apparently he blocked loads of other people as well, and he just changed. The way that made me feel, was as if someone had torn a piece of my heart out... It hurts to lose someone close to you with nor real reason So, if you want your friends to feel like me, afraid to trust anyone or get close to anyone, then don't just cut people off without a good reason.

Avoidant?
You fascinate me.

It seems like you have a social anxiety or a very introverted personality . You like to spend time within yourself and cant find much happiness in connecting with others . I would suggest having some relationships both friendly and romantic as it can be wonderful and improve life experience however if you are content this way .. there is nothing wrong by it but if you would like to have relationships and see the joy in it however for some reason cant or become anxious because of it .. I would say work on it and sorry to hear about this :( I have had a very introverted personality yet I can be so outgoing when I feel comfortable or safe . I have a social anxiety and I don't trust people .. I don't like being in unfamiliar territory emotionally . I have many reasons from my life which I wont delve into but I definitely enjoy having the friends I do and the relationships I have when they are there and going well . I can see the full benefit of connecting with people ... I also distance myself a lot , am anxious , fearful , confused by people , I feel like I wont find someone like myself as I feel too different but it's something I work on every day and I push myself to do . I involve myself in outings and time with friends when I can etc. sometimes I regret it but a lot of time's it paid off so give it a try :) if not at least start online like I did and then work your way out there . I ended up here many years ago on IIN because I felt left out from the world in my personality and life , along with social anxiety .

Do you feel anxious around people? If so could be social anxiety.
But if not you'd probably have to dig deeper and figure it out.
Were you emotionally hurt by someone friend/ gf whatever? Maybe you cut everything so short do you don't get attached and get hurt again.

But no anon Im sorry this isn't normal behavior. :/ I'm sorry. I hope you can try making friends and stop running. Being independent is fun but being lonely isn't.. You need social interaction and stuff you know ?