Is it normal that i obsess about what happens after you die?
I was raised in a religious household, to immigrant parents, and I strayed from my religion (had sex with 2 guys, decided I was atheist for awhile) And now I'm just confused. I have read all kinds of scripture from Judaism, Christianity, and Islam (the Abrahamic faiths)and it all seems to point to hell, and even when it says God forgives, it seems like its arbitrarily up to him. I always feel guilty but in my gut I don't believe. Actually, at times I don't know if I do believe but its just more comforting to believe death is just sleeping forever. Man, I realize this is a complicated question.
Basically, I feel guilt, religious confusion, and panic about what happens after I die. Is this normal?