Is it normal that i "need" a girlfriend?

Is it normal that I'm 21 years old and never had a girlfriend? My mom is putting pressure on me lately slipping it in regular conversation and I really don't like it. I know when she suggests it she's thinking of the idea of me having a girlfriend my own age but she doesn't know I like older women.

If I bring an older woman home I know she'll freak out and I don't want to make her uncomfortable. I'm a little mature for my age but can be immature also so I do like girls younger than me also.

I guess I've never actively looked for a girlfriend for fear of being hurt so I guess I've put it off. My first experiences with girls have been being chased around kindergarten and high-school from girls who found me attractive, and I always ran away because I wasn't at that kissing girls stage yet.

Something that's worth mentioning i guess is that my first kiss was at 5 years old and I'm not a virgin, I just feel uncomfortable fulfilling my mom's need to see her son with someone, or the idea she's formed in her mind of the girl I should be with.

Right now I'd rather pay a hot stripper or something to fulfill my physical needs and that's it. I'm at a stage in life where I don't need to deal with pressures like going out with one girl, feeling like I have to call her at certain times etc... I don't think I'll give her my all as I'm working hard to become economically independent. Is this normal?

Aslo, I know that before marrying or having children, you have to know the person well or at least live with them for like 12 months and I personally want 3-4 healthy children so by the time she has her first, she'll be 23, then 24, 25, and 26, and when we're 30 our first will be 7 and if anyone of us happens to die young, at least we would have enjoyed our children.

I have all these thoughts running through my head time is passing by and I'm putting pressure on myself, plus I live in a country where I can't find girls who speak the same language or have the same culture as me and I know that's very important to me, so what do I do?

I know it doesn't have to be this complicated but these are realities I have to deal with sooner or later, should I move out and find my own space when I can afford it?

I would like to save up to move to the country where I know I'll find the girl of my dreams but I can't move out, and I have to save allot before I can embark on that journey. Is all of this normal?