Is it normal that i might hate my bestfriend ? what should i do?

First of all, I wanna know am I crazy or something and wanna show everyone how bitch/brag/bad my best friend is
She's the best friend of me since I am in grade 7 which means it's 6 years ago and now she's still my best friend. We love doing funny thing together. I mostly hangout with her. We rarely fight. The thing between us it's not that bad till now. I know that she's talking behind my back. she trys to degrade me. She trys to discredit me. She tells some of my friend a lie about me which makes everyone misunderstands me. As I told u we rarely fight till last year. We start fighting. First it's about she cancelled my appointmentS for going out with her lover for many timeSsssssS. Some of my friends said that this is not a big deal but it's for me because it happens so many time n not wit them! Ok well , at least this thing she knows that she's wrong so she said sorry to me every time but this time happens over and over again. I completely know that the word sorry isn't not from her guilty feeling. I feel really bad about it but ok she's my best friend I can ignore. I start feel bad since that thing happened till last week. I and my friends including this BFF make appointment for dinner. This dinner is kinda important to me for some reasons. Many things came up n we almost couldn't make it bec some of my friends. I called her n told her what's the problem. She said that no matter I'll have dinner with you even if it's jus the two of us. I suddenly feel good but the next day she destroyed all those good feeling I have! Long story short, the dinner happened but after that we had a fight bec of her action and her words. Days passed, I'm not mad at her about what she did to my dinner but right now I'm still mad at her about what she mentioned and talked about! She supposes to call me since that day but many days passed she hasn't called me yet. We haven't talked to each other. I m no way to call her or contact her first! Bec this is not my fault and I once texted her but she didn't reply. What should I do ..? anyway , Don't tell me to contact her first lol
Ps. She called one of my friends n told her about this. She told my friend that she knows she's wrong and I am always her best friend she said she wanna say sorry wanna explain n etc to me but the thing is she's kinda busy right now. She said like that for 100 times but she's not. She has the time for shopping. She has the time for facebook-ing and etc. Why she jus sacrifice her precious 2minutes and call me. I'm so curious is this what best friend does to each other.
Ps. Days equal as months for us
Ps. I start hate her now because she ruins my good feeling. What should I do ? Is it normal or something?

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Comments ( 5 )
  • RoseIsabella

    Move on with your life. She sounds toxic. All the lying and rumor mongering is not the behavior of a true friend.

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  • woopwoopjumpjump

    I guess it's normal..

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  • randomjelly

    Try some separation. You sound too dependent on her and her actions are causing you to play silly games which in turn make you just as guilty. Take a breather.

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  • DefinitelyNotNormal89

    She keeps cancelling on you- that is the first thing that would piss me off, infact I'd have stopped making the effort a long time ago. A friendship is a two way thing.
    She maybe stubborn or embarrased and building up courage to talk to you. If she really is your "BFF", well life is awfully short so I'd just give her a ring, if no luck still then just forget about her, just a thought...
    BUT you don't want to ring her lol the only option is waiting, she will come round but in the meantime you're going to stew over your feelings and it's only going to get worse in your head.
    Personally if I still wanted to make it work I'd try texting her or facebook messaging her or something and literally tell her EVERYTHING that's bothering you, the fact that she is constantly cancelling on you over a man, the fact that she admits she's in the wrong, the fact that it's quite obvious you're the only one making the effot. That way you've tried, the ball is in her court and she has this one last chance to make a difference and if she doesn't she's really not worth it.
    It's so horrible falling out with a close friend =( so good luck!

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  • uknoit

    you can always talk to other people :)

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