Is it normal that i might hate my bestfriend ? what should i do?
First of all, I wanna know am I crazy or something and wanna show everyone how bitch/brag/bad my best friend is
She's the best friend of me since I am in grade 7 which means it's 6 years ago and now she's still my best friend. We love doing funny thing together. I mostly hangout with her. We rarely fight. The thing between us it's not that bad till now. I know that she's talking behind my back. she trys to degrade me. She trys to discredit me. She tells some of my friend a lie about me which makes everyone misunderstands me. As I told u we rarely fight till last year. We start fighting. First it's about she cancelled my appointmentS for going out with her lover for many timeSsssssS. Some of my friends said that this is not a big deal but it's for me because it happens so many time n not wit them! Ok well , at least this thing she knows that she's wrong so she said sorry to me every time but this time happens over and over again. I completely know that the word sorry isn't not from her guilty feeling. I feel really bad about it but ok she's my best friend I can ignore. I start feel bad since that thing happened till last week. I and my friends including this BFF make appointment for dinner. This dinner is kinda important to me for some reasons. Many things came up n we almost couldn't make it bec some of my friends. I called her n told her what's the problem. She said that no matter I'll have dinner with you even if it's jus the two of us. I suddenly feel good but the next day she destroyed all those good feeling I have! Long story short, the dinner happened but after that we had a fight bec of her action and her words. Days passed, I'm not mad at her about what she did to my dinner but right now I'm still mad at her about what she mentioned and talked about! She supposes to call me since that day but many days passed she hasn't called me yet. We haven't talked to each other. I m no way to call her or contact her first! Bec this is not my fault and I once texted her but she didn't reply. What should I do ..? anyway , Don't tell me to contact her first lol
Ps. She called one of my friends n told her about this. She told my friend that she knows she's wrong and I am always her best friend she said she wanna say sorry wanna explain n etc to me but the thing is she's kinda busy right now. She said like that for 100 times but she's not. She has the time for shopping. She has the time for facebook-ing and etc. Why she jus sacrifice her precious 2minutes and call me. I'm so curious is this what best friend does to each other.
Ps. Days equal as months for us
Ps. I start hate her now because she ruins my good feeling. What should I do ? Is it normal or something?