Is it normal that i might be insecure/unsure about my race?

Ok. So let me just say that i haven't always wondered this, i guess it started occurring to me as i got older and matured (19 yrs old btw). So my father is white and was born in Greece. My mother LOOKS black. She has all the features of a black person but she is Peruvian (which is a Hispanic nation). She wasn't just born in Peru but raised there by Peruvian parents, her first language was Spanish and all of her family dates back to being from peru as far as we know.
Now...whenever anyone asks me what nationality i am i used to say half white and half hispanic but when they would see my mom, questions would come up like:
"Dude that's your mom? I thought she was spanish...she looks black?"
So now i just say im half white and half black just to avoid explaining to people about my mom actually being Peruvian and etc.etc...
I've become conflicted with this issue and i'm beginning to lose my sense of belonging. What the hell should i call myself!?

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  • ToxicCrayons

    Er, just tell them that she's Hispanic.

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  • unameko

    i am half and half too. my mom is from Thailand, but everyone always assumes she's Chinese or Japanese. gotta be proud of your roots!!

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  • geebs

    Dont let this bother you. people inflict their own pain and perceptions on you... insecurity.

    I am mixed too. and I am tired of both groups. black people tend to tell you you are only their race, and if you state u are mix to them, they behave nasty, they can be very prejudice. Also,white people can be prejudiced and racist too, but I feel they have treated me nicer than blacks. But it is half and half. I am tired of both groups. both are lacking. and i do agree it is a power issue.

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  • HellAndHighWater

    I think you should be proud of your race. I can understand being confused, but I don't think trying to avoid it is a good thing to do.

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  • M131313

    FORGET FEELING BADLY ABOUT COLOUR...IT IS SO STUPID...WE ARE ALL HUMANS REGARDLESS.
    I AM WHITE, AND SICK AND TIRED OF HEARING HOW GOOD WE WHITES..ARE...WE ARE NO BETTER THAN BLACKS..OR ANYONE ELSE..IT IS JUST A MYTH TO PERPETUATE THE POWER THING.

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    • geebs

      also

      if people dont want to educate themselves on the peruvian demographics, that is their problem, you have the knowledge and that is to your advantage....they are just ignorant....ignore it and live your life.

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  • Unless someone is already very familiar with you, like a friend or a coworker that you get along with well, it's actually impolite for people to ask you that question.

    When you are not sure of their motives, instead of explaining the truth to them right away, you could say in a pleasant tone of voice:
    "Why do you ask?"
    That will give them a pause and they'll maybe reconsider pestering you with those sort of personal questions.

    I also think that when you tell people that you are 1/2 Greek and 1/2 Peruvian, they should accept that as the truth and they are just being ignorant if they push you further.

    I don't mean you shouldn't be proud of your heritage, but I just think you should be aware that you don't owe people an explanation. [If healthcare professionals ask you, you should tell them because it may help them.]

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    • casualcrow

      your comment totally made me look at this from a different perspective. You are right in the sense that i don't really own anyone an explanation, it would just be easier to be able to come up with a straight forward answer with no questions to follow. But i appreciate the advice, thanks.

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  • Golden

    I'm mixed myself and I'm the kind of mixed where people can tell so I get asked what I'm mixed with all the time. I simply tell them the truth. If people want more of an explanation, I give it to them. They think it's interesting and I think it's fun to tell. If you look at it as a cool thing, a thing that sets you apart and makes you interesting, it can be fun. If it gets tiring to keep explaining just say your half white half Peruvian and if they say but your mom looks black just shrug and be like ' she's Peruvian, they have similar features to black people' which is true. If they act like they don't believe you, tell them to look it up. There are lots of different kinds of Hispanic so they should take your word for it. They're being a bit naive by thinking your mom isn't Hispanic just because she looks black, half of Cuba is of African descent so a lot of them look black too. For your issue of belonging, it can be quite a struggle sometimes for us or at least the ones I talk to. For me, I use to just claim one side because I thought I looked more like it, turns out the people I thought I looked more like are the ones who claim they can tell I'm mixed from a mile away. By the time I was in my teens I just claimed both because I'd always been proud of both. When I felt super confused I just read stuff about my cultures so to at least learn more, that turned out to be a great thing, it made me feel enlightened about my people. So honestly, don’t sweat it, us mixed folk are awesome!

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    • casualcrow

      Thanks for the feedback Golden, i have the type of friends that don't really care about an explanation. I wish i could tell people to just "look it up" so they would stop questioning me. Its not such a huge problem though, most of my friends understand and have no problem with it...its more annoying when someone random asks me or i am meeting new people.

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    • casualcrow

      Thats my point though, i'm sick and tired of having to explain to people the racial demographics of people from Peru. I am in no form or shape ashamed of my being mixed, i actually think it's unique and i love my skin tone lol...

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