Is it normal that i'm still grieving?
When I was eleven years old, I lost my grandfather to cancer. He lived in England, halfway across the world from me, but I considered him my best friend. His wife, my grandmother, was very distant with me and I grew extremely close with him. My father and I would visit him and my grandmother every year and it was the happiest three weeks of my year. When he died, it was quite drawn out over six or seven months, but I didn't really understand how serious it was until two days before he died. When he passed, my father took a plane to England and a small ceremony was held. I wasn't a part of it, but my aunt and grandmother were along with my dad. His ashes were sprinkled in the river. To this day, if I even think about my grandfather, i burst into tears. I find it hard to look at pictures of him and when I hear his name or even see a death on tv, I'm on the verge of tears. I think about him at night and most nights, I end up crying myself to sleep. After seven years, I can't seem to let my grief go. Is this normal? What can I do to stop feeling this way?