Is it normal that i'm scared of death but want to die?
I'm terrified at the prospect of oblivion, or Hell (assuming that's where I'm headed). I don't like the idea of not feeling, or seeing, or hearing or tasting. But I'm tired of living life like I can't trust anyone who might hate me. I want to die, but I don't want to know what happens afterward. Of all reasons to die, life would be first on the list, but of all reasons to live, the prospect of death seems to be the most frightening. I can't decide or escape, and sometimes I wish I was never born.
I think everyone thinks like this occasionally, whether they like to admit it or not. Do you agree?