Is it normal that i'm not genuine with other people?
I don't mean that I'm too faced, because I'm really not, what I mean by not being genuine is that most of the people I talk to I really hate, I just don't like anyone in specific, except for 2 people. When I meet a new person I'm sickeningly friendly, I try and make them laugh and people like me, and I'm just disgusted by them. It's this thing inside me that wants everyone to like me, to think I'm great, to be the best, funniest in a group, but in reality I don't care for this people i try so hard to make feel good. I pretend empathy I definitely don't feel, and like I said, a lot of the people I try to impress and get them to like me, disgust me, I think they're absolutely pathetic. I would never tell them, or anyone else for that matter, I absolutely hate hurting people, but I do think these things; so I guess I am a bit too-faced. But even though I don't care for them, if I ever see them or not, if they are my friends or not, I still care about impressing, have them think I'm cool. Is that normal? I sound like a nutter.