Is it normal that i'm "in love" with my own deviance?
I'm obsessed with spying on women, violent pornography, and often think about kidnapping them. Not haha trolling. Haha seriously planned out.
I romantasize these things in my head to the degree that I feel at peace with the idea, I go on long walks just thinking about it over and over.
I've actually got an erection just from writing this. My GF doesn't know about any of this.