Is it normal that i'm in denial?

I have tinnitus, but to help myself cancel that thought that I've damaged my ears, I tell myself that someone is just talking about me. Of course I know that nobody really is talking about me, but I've had the ringing in my ears for years, and 3 years ago, I remember asking a friend about it. She told me, "Girl, don't you know someones talking about you? Left is for love. Right is for spite.". I never believed it, but I just tell myself that over and over again.

Someones just talking about me. I feel like the more I say it to myself, the more I believe it. Yet, in the back of my mind, I'm really saying, "No. You're just going deaf!". Worst part about it, is that I can't stop listening to my music so loud. :'(