Is it normal that i'm gay and i don't like gay people?
Ok, so I am gay and I've known since I was 17. I came out at 18, and I'm 20 now. I have yet to have a relationship with a man. I just can't do it. I have had two sexual encounters with men, both of which I strongly regretted. I just don't like gay people and I'm completely uncomfortable around them. I hate being gay, but I channel that anxiety and fear into extremely high achievement. I have absolutely no gay friends. I have a positive impression about one gay person that I know out of at least ten. I have always said, and I always will say, people shouldn't try to act gay. When I meet a gay person whose actions and mannerisms don't make me feel extremely uncomfortable, I will consider something. But until then, I'm not doing it myself. Is that delusional or crazy?