Is it normal that i'm depressed every night and energetic in daylight?

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I'm straight male. Almost 21 years old. For almost 4 weeks, I always feel depressed at night, then, when I wake up in the morning, I feel alive.

When i'm depressed, I suddenly feel that I'm worthless, nothing, so common, friendless, and lots of negativities that most of them I can't recognize but I'm aware that those are negative auras. I Just want to lay my body forever. Then this past few days, I feel like those negativities were leveling-up. I'm starting to think of death but not suicidal. I remember thinking of "what if I have an uncureable disease?" and then I, unaware, answer my thought with "I will kill myself". Then I begin picturing myself holding a gun pointing in my head, jumping down from the roof top, drinking lots of hazardous chemicals.

Then everytime I wake up, I don't mind of what I'm thinking the night after that. I feel stupid because I thought about that. I feel like I should be alive. I'm happy. I have no problem when they are asking/commanding too many things in me. Off course I get tired, but after few minutes, I want to move again. Well, I'm not that energetic, though I want to move. But along with this, I easily get mad/irritated for some reasons, most of the time, minimal. Sometimes I want to explode and find reason to make crazy things. Happy. Irritated. Happy. Irritated.

I feel like.... there's a needle torned in my chest.... But no matter what i do, I can't find it... or maybe... there are really no needle.

additional info:
-I think too much that most of them i can't recognize
-during depressive times, I recall things that i don't want to be recall.

I want help, but I can't rely with my family for some apparent reasons. So maybe here.

Am I suffering with something serious?
Is this normal?

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Comments ( 6 )
  • DolphinAngel
    11 years ago

    What the fuck is wrong with the mods these days?!

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    Ask your Circadian rhythm.

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  • intellectuallychallengedmaybe
    11 years ago

    SUGGESTION:

    GO TO THE HEALTH FOOD STORE

    GET LIQUID VITAMIN D (2000 IUs or less)

    PUT 1 DROP OF IT ON TOP OR UNDER YOUR TOUNGE BEFORE GOING TO BED AT NIGHT. (only one drop! - the stuff can be powerful)

    CONTINUE THIS FOR 2 WEEKS.

    SEE IF THERE IS A DIFFERENCE WITH HOW YOU FEEL.

    KEEP US POSTED.

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  • Gixie
    11 years ago

    Go to see your doctor and get him to give you some mild anti deppressants to help you sleep, what you have is a over active imagination/mind, i used to have similer when i went to bed, i couldent sleep thinking up new things but still thinking of the other stuff at the same time and i overloaded my brain so i couldn't sleep. Its more common than you think.

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  • RoseIsabella
    11 years ago

    I have the opposite problem. I am a night owl and daylight feels overwhelming to me. It probably doesn't help that I live in Las Vegas, Nevada with all the summer temperatures above 100 degrees and no humidity. When I lived in Fort Lauderdale I loved the balmy days and I spent lots of time by the pool or swimming laps. I thought how beautiful the days were and I never felt depressed; I even trained to join a local swim team. I didn't lay out by the pool with sun tan oil trying to catch a tan but I also didn't get sunburned. My skin just felt natural and healthy. Now in the summer my skin gets red and my face feels tight after a few minutes outside. I only live here because my folks retired here and I want to be near family because they are old. I feel for you. I hate being so sensitive to the climate and time of day. The way I see it Paradise would be a tropical island and hell and damnation would look like west Texas. No offense to anyone from Texas cause I'm originally from Houston and I love Texas I just hate the desert.

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  • Glowfly
    11 years ago

    I wouldn't necessarily say this is a normal way to feel, but I also don't think it's so uncommon to be considered "abnormal".

    People with Depression may feel it worse at night, but since you feel fine during the day maybe what you're feeling is more controlled by sunlight and the release of serotonin in your brain.

    If you feel your moods fluctuating frequently, that could also be the sign of Bipolar Disorder (manic/depressive episodes).

    I know it can be hard to open up to family about things like this. Maybe look for a support group in your area?

    In the meantime, you could try some things to lessen your depression. Check out these sites for depression-fighting tips:
    - http://www.webmd.com/depression/features/natural-treatments
    - http://www.care2.com/greenliving/11-natural-treatments-for-depression-an-mds-tips-for-skipping-the-prozac.html

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