Is it normal that i'm beautiful but i think i'm a monster?

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Everyone keeps on talking about how beautiful I am without me asking or fishing for compliments, a lot of people keep on saying that I look like a Goddess, but I just don't see that. Whenever I look in the mirror, I get depressed. I hate my looks and I wish I could change them, so I once scheduled an appointment with a very famous surgeon in my area, I explained my problem and he was like '' what? Are you serious? You have model-like facial features, a lot of people come here to look exactly like you, no way I'm going to touch your face, there's absolutely nothing to change ''.
This made me feel better for a while, then everything started all over again, I regularly get panic attacks about being ugly, well you're probably thinking that I'm shallow and too vain, but no, I'm not. The reason why I hate my looks is that I think I don't even look human, I seriously think I'm the ugliest person ever, I think I have a deformed face. No matter how many guys approach me and no matter what everyone says, when I look in the mirror all I see is a monster and I think to myself '' I'd be happy if I was ugly, but I'm worse than ugly, I'm a monster ''

I skip school because of that and as a result I fail a lot of tests because I don't follow any classes, and I dumped my boyfriend because every time he asked me to meet, I would get depressed about my looks, I was just afraid of his opinion.

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  • xfg43
    7 years ago

    Chances are you probably are ugly and people around you are too nice. Maybe the doctor thought you were too young for surgery and needed a self-esteem boost. As you get older and people stop complimenting you, you will come to realize that they were only saying those things to make you feel better about yourself.

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    • Ipooprainbows
      7 years ago

      That's quite a harsh statement don't you think? At the end of the day, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Yes some people pretend & say compliments just to be nice but then their will be those who genuinely think the person is attractive.

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    • Sheelky
      7 years ago

      So can a lot of attractive guys approach a girl just because they're being nice or do I have low self esteem? Which one is more probable?

      UPDATE: just saw your history, what a sick troll.

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  • Ellenna
    7 years ago

    You need professional therapy for your self-esteem issues.

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  • DaBruzzah
    7 years ago

    I am ugly, but why should I fucking care? The rest of the world has to look at me. It's their problem. Fuck them.

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  • Hey_guys_its_me
    7 years ago

    I think it's time to let go of what you look like in general. Don't bother thinking about if other people think your beautiful, even if they do. Just be happy. Smash your fucking mirror and let go of appearances. Just forget about feeling like u have to look good at all.

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  • charli.m
    7 years ago

    You should seek counselling. No one here is qualified to give you any further advice.

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    • Murun
      7 years ago

      You aren't qualified to say no one here is qualified to give you any further advice.

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      • charli.m
        7 years ago

        ...were you absent when they were handing out common fucking sense?

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  • Whatintarnation
    7 years ago

    I think I'd just talk to a counselor or pastor or whoever you feel easy talking to. A bunch of weirdo strangers on the Internet probably aren't going to give you the best advice. Self esteem about your looks can be hard to overcome. Good luck.

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  • Murun
    7 years ago

    Whatever you do don't have surgery! I've never seen anyone looking better after any kind of cosmetic surgery, unless it's reconstructing an actual disfigurement through birth or post-accident or whatever. Beauty is pretty much in the eye of the beholder anyway. It sounds like you just need to reprogramme your mind a bit to not concentrate on your looks so much. Maybe people telling you you're good-looking so often has made looks a bigger issue for you than they should be? Bear in mind plenty of actual ugly-looking people get on with a happy life without giving looks a second thought!

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  • SpookyPancake
    6 years ago

    Sounds like body dysmorphia. Seek psychological help.

    Remember, if you think you are sober, but one person says you're drunk, ignore it. Second person says you're drunk? Ignore it. The entire bar says you are drunk? Go home.

    You are probably beautiful. I'm sorry you feel so bad

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  • Jayemen
    7 years ago

    Some women are like that. I've dated, off and on, a woman who's so strikingly beautiful that we've been out, and people have stopped to compliment her. She has gorgeous, green eyes, great smile, high cheekbones, tanned skin, and brown/auburn hair that frames her beautiful face. Honestly one of the most beautiful women I've ever known or been with.

    However, she not only doesn't see it, she'll say she's "below average" and tells me I'm nuts or crazy for telling her she's beautiful. While she doesn't call herself a monster, she has said she never looks good, is always a mess and shouldn't be seen in public..Just total denial of her amazing beauty. And it's not looking for compliments. She actually believes it, and won't see herself otherwise.

    I took her to the ER one night, and one of the nurses, while I was waiting for her to have testing done, said to me "She's very beautiful..You're one lucky guy". We then stopped off for a quick drink at my usual place, late, and my bartender friend, female, asked if she was the one I'd talked about a few times. I said yes, and, she/bartender friend said "I can see why..She's gorgeous". Two women, in one night, compliment her, and she won't believe it.

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