Is it normal that i'm attracted to one girl. just this one?

i'm a girl. and for 3 years now i've been attracted to this one girl in my class. and trust me it's mutual. i knew her for a year before. but one day randomly there was all this sexual tension. she couldnt look me in the eye and i couldnt look at her. i'd catch her staring at me and i'd stare at her too. the first few months we both refused to talk to each other. but we'd always stare. then we started talking. and we became friends. the sexual tension never wavered. i never forgot what i felt when i spoke to her. we never spoke about our mutual attraction to each other. never. now that we're older i can tell shes as tired of this as i am. i dont knw what goes on in her mind. one day i catch her staring at me looking really sad so many times. the next day she's pulled away from me.she's refusing to even look in my direction. the feelings between us are so incredibly strong. when she's sad. i'm sad. when i laugh she smiles. but we never say anything out loud. i've never been attracted to any other girl. just her. and now i have a boyfriend who i've been with for a year and i love him to bits. when she saw me with him. well..she hasnt spoken to me for a long time and when i asked her a question she looked at my ear and replied not to my face. maybe you guys think this is stupid. why dnt we get together already? but there's a lot of problems. i may be the religious one but i knw shes more determined to be straight. this has cause me so much emotional strain. if i dnt see her at school my mood is ruined and sometimes i cry. a lot. i may have a boyfriend who i love to bits but shes the one i think about right before i go to sleep. i find her so amazing. i dont knw what to do. i want this to end,i knw if we keep pulling away it will end even if the feelings dnt stop. our high school life is over in a few weeks. i just want someones opinion on what this is and what i should do.

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  • mumbum

    Wow!! That is the saddest post I have ever read! My first though is to write het a letter... The ongoing silence over the matter makes it all so incredibly awkward. You must be so confused and frustrated..:( maybe this just needs to be your secret.. Never ever tell your bf, approach this girl (via letter or whatever u are comfortable with) and let it unfold naturally. True love and attraction and intimacy like this is just so unbelievably rare... You can't let the year end without acting on this. Make the first move. She will respond! I can promise you that. Keep us updated. I have favourited your post... Good luck with it...:)

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    • feathers91

      thank you. just knowing that i'm not the only person who's been through this is a relief in itself. the think is. i'm really scared of being rejected. what if she just stares at me and says she has no idea what i'm on about?? i guess that would be it then but i dont know if i have the guts to go through with it. we're not even talking right now and every day is more awkward than the next. it has been so frustrating and confusing. and such an emotional drain. hopefully when i see her tomorrow i'll slowly muster up the courage to just say hi.

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  • Dixonnj32

    I’m reading this just now because I have a VERY similar scenario. The sexual tension, catching each other’s eyes. She’s in my class too. I have dated so many boys, yet this one girl is just beautiful in so many ways.. admiration doesn’t always have to be sexual. Yet I feel it. Kind of a sinking feeling everytime we make eye contact, and my face gets flushed. I hope you found what you wanted, because life really is too short to spend it with one person. It’s normal.

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  • peterrabbyt69

    I have fucked her many times and even up the ass. Are you sure this is who you want.

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  • Berniefrances810

    I'm a woman & i've only been attracted to one woman all my life. 30 plus years a divorce and two grown children and in finally In love and very happy

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  • Lezbean1027

    I'm a very out lesbian and I met this girl at my job. She had a boyfriend she was living with and was completely straight. She's gorgeous and amazing and of course I had the biggest crush on her. We hung out alot because my coworkers are like a big family and always spend lots of time together. We ended up spending a day together alone due to people bailing but we had this amazing connection. I thought it was just me so I never said anything until she started asking me to hang out more just the two of us. One night we were driving and talking when we stopped at a red light and she kissed me. Then she freaked out and went on this whole rant about how she doesn't like girls and she has never wanted to be with a girl before until me. I was very hesitant because this just sounded like an experiment and not my cup of tea. But my gut and my heart said to give it a try and that was 2 months ago. As I type this im laying next to her as she sleeps and it's been the best two months of my life. I've found the love of my life and as did She. Her friends and family love me and say they never have seen her so happy. I say go for it and you never know, she could be your soulmate. "Give in to love or live in fear"

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  • mumbum

    How did things go? I very much doubt she will blankly stare at you not knowing what you are talking about... It is definitely mutual.

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  • Josie_57

    im sort of the same, ive never thought of myself as being gay/ bi before, but ive had feelings just toward 1 girl. however i know shes straight so just ignored it, now my feelings have basically gone.
    but your story sound different if she likes you too maybe your meant to be together and you should say something to her? it might be hard and might not work, but if you dont do anything you might miss out on the love of your life. i say do something about it :) well in the end you should follow your heart and do what feels right, good luck

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  • graydarkness

    Yep. That happened to me. Although it was the first guy of many. We were best friends in high school. It was obvious we liked each other to pieces. It was so intense that we too seemed to share emotions. I was possessive/protective of him even though he was just as tough as me. And although we had chemistry, it never went anywhere. Oh, we never dated. And the girl I did date... I could only think about him. It was over quickly. He's gone to college and I still miss him sometimes.

    Long story short? You're not the only one. It's not about being gay, it's about being with who you're supposed to be with. I think you should go for it.

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  • sweetybug7585

    This sounds just like me with this girl and she is my best friend. But I think that u two need to talk it out and put an end to it or a new begging

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  • CharacterTraits

    Wow, that sounds almost exactly like my relationship with this one guy. Well, it is a sticky situation and you both have feeling for each other, right? The first thing you should do is look at yourself and be COMPLETELY honest. I did this and it changed me drastically. I kept lying to myself over and over again to be normal and stay in line like everyone else. But I was never happy at the end of the day. But when I looked at myself in a completely new light, I changed and I am happy now.
    Another thing is to talk to her. Vocalizing your feelings to someone is the next step in a greater relationship and makes you feel so much better. An example is this website. The ability to talk about what you feel to complete strangers and get there feedback without talking to someone to the face. But when you talk to someone you trust and know, you feel a bond with that person.
    Everything works itself out in time. Just wait it through and do what you think is right.

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  • chewy

    if your boyfriend is ok with it then why not?

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  • Maybe you and her are meant to be.
    I think you should talk to her about it.
    It will obviously be hard. But your questions will be answered and go knows, it could be the start of something new.

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