Is it normal that i'm attracted to one girl. just this one?
i'm a girl. and for 3 years now i've been attracted to this one girl in my class. and trust me it's mutual. i knew her for a year before. but one day randomly there was all this sexual tension. she couldnt look me in the eye and i couldnt look at her. i'd catch her staring at me and i'd stare at her too. the first few months we both refused to talk to each other. but we'd always stare. then we started talking. and we became friends. the sexual tension never wavered. i never forgot what i felt when i spoke to her. we never spoke about our mutual attraction to each other. never. now that we're older i can tell shes as tired of this as i am. i dont knw what goes on in her mind. one day i catch her staring at me looking really sad so many times. the next day she's pulled away from me.she's refusing to even look in my direction. the feelings between us are so incredibly strong. when she's sad. i'm sad. when i laugh she smiles. but we never say anything out loud. i've never been attracted to any other girl. just her. and now i have a boyfriend who i've been with for a year and i love him to bits. when she saw me with him. well..she hasnt spoken to me for a long time and when i asked her a question she looked at my ear and replied not to my face. maybe you guys think this is stupid. why dnt we get together already? but there's a lot of problems. i may be the religious one but i knw shes more determined to be straight. this has cause me so much emotional strain. if i dnt see her at school my mood is ruined and sometimes i cry. a lot. i may have a boyfriend who i love to bits but shes the one i think about right before i go to sleep. i find her so amazing. i dont knw what to do. i want this to end,i knw if we keep pulling away it will end even if the feelings dnt stop. our high school life is over in a few weeks. i just want someones opinion on what this is and what i should do.