Is it normal that i'm asexual, yet somehow preoccupied with sex?
First off, I'm fairly certain I'm asexual, as I don't feel sexual attraction to any other people, and I certainly have no desire to have sex with anyone. Frankly the very idea seems quite disgusting to me. And yet I'm preoccupied with sex in a weird way. I'm probably about as interested in reading about sex, for instance - or plot points in fiction that have something to do with it - as any sexual person, maybe more than some, even though I feel like it shouldn't raise my interest.
Moreover, and worse, I enjoy looking at some rather explicit fan art - but being fan art, it is, of course, drawn in a more cartoonish than realistic way and it only depicts fictional characters (which kind of makes it better, I hope).
What I don't enjoy is looking at pornography with real people in it; I find it rather funny, to be honest, and not aesthetically pleasing in the least. And I don't masturbate, because I derive little to no pleasure from the act. I used to think that was because I didn't know how to do it "right", but now I'm not sure. I do enjoy some very particular sexual thoughts and images, though, but I don't know what to do with them. Nothing, I guess.
As little as I know about actual sex, I'm sure it would repulse me. I've been thinking about how it's so much dirtier and messier IRL compared even to the porn, let alone drawn images (except Japanese hentai, now that's horrible).
So, what say you? Is this normal for an asexual person or not?