Is it normal that i love my cousin
Ok so I fell in love with her since the moment I saw her, I didn't grow up with her or anything, I met her when I was 16, she went to visit the family in my country I think she liked me too, we used to stay up late and talk and talk :) and then, she left, I was sad :( two years later I see her again, because I went to USA but she was different over here :( like she didn't want to see me anymore, I found out she was dating some guy, :( but I still loved her, then she got pregnant and I got really mad at her, 2 more years pass and then she started going to my house after that and hanging out with me, I don't know why, because I didn't want to see her again :( then I say fuck it, this she will never be mine, so I got a girlfriend, but I don't love her :( one night my cousin told me to go to her house to drink, and I don't know how, she grabbed my hand and then I kissed her and I touched her I was so happy :) and she let me do it, and I think she fell in love with me because the guy she is with is an asshole, she says she love me all the time, but I am with my girlfriend, but the truth is that I don't love my girlfriend I love my cousin :( I don't know what to do, she knows and tell me we can never be, I know that, but we can still see each other here and there :)