Is it normal that i lost my virginity like this?

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Okay. I don't even know where to start. Well for starters I've always had a weird fascination with sex. I can remember looking it up online and reading stories and watching porn and looking at pictures at a VERY young age. I used to make my Barbies have sex with each other and I thought about sex constantly. In high school I had a serious boyfriend and I always wanted to have sex but for some reason didn't. I came up with stupid reasons like how I didn't want to lose my virginity drunk, which knocked out a lot of the times considering a drank a lot in high school. So I ended up heading to college a virgin. Freshman year I turned down every guy because I wasn't about to lose my virginity to a random drunk frat guy. I am now a sophomore in college, and last weekend I lost my virginity. To a guy I had met that night. And I was drunk (in my defense, when I'm hammered I'm still more sober than most actually sober people) I am feeling very confused as everything I had always believed I essentially threw right out the window. It honestly started off a little rapey, I was saying how I didn't want to and then his dick was pretty much in me soooooo. Now I don't know what to think about myself, my values, my morals, or my self control. Part of me doesn't really care, I've always been different and have never experienced things in a 'normal' way, if that makes sense? But on the other hand I keep thinking about it. It doesn't help that I've seen him twice since and he's been a complete asshole and essentially avoided talking to me. I think that's the part I'm hung up on. I just don't know what to think. Tell me internet, what do you think?

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  • handsignals
    10 years ago

    So, turn it round. Forget about what happened and find some nice guy and do it right.

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    • Diver2
      10 years ago

      Suck the new guy off and swallow, whatever you do.

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      • mlbryan44
        10 years ago

        Are you a queer?

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  • SkullsNRoses
    10 years ago

    This may be contraverisal but I think virginty is over rated and that the idea of 'saving yourself' was invented mostly to comodify women. Nearly everyone has sex, it's natural and nothing to be ashamed about, even if it didn't go as you planned.

    If this guy's an arsehole then forget about him, it was a one-night stand, he doesn't owe you any attention and you don't owe him any back. There's plenty more fish in the sea.

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  • Couman
    10 years ago

    I'm not saying how that happened was cool, but it does have a bright side I think. I sounds to me like virginity was in some ways a burden for you, because you were (IMHO overly) concerned about the circumstances of the "first time". Now that's over, and it wasn't what you planned, but you no longer have to worry about it. Next time you have an opportunity to have sex you only have to consider it on its own merits without that extra complication.

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  • (s)aint
    10 years ago

    You said no and he continued? A no should always be respected!

    It's nothing wrong with you for having sex while drunk either.

    When I got my first boyfriend at 16,5 I was with him for maybe 2 weeks ( just met him during weekends) and then I slept with him because I really wanted to have sex.
    Then I dumped him when he refused to even hug me and cuddle when I got my period . Such love<3

    Today? I'm a sex addict, I love sex!

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  • Diver2
    10 years ago

    Who gives a fuck?

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  • loopoo
    10 years ago

    I think its normal. A lot of people lose their virginity drunk and in a way they didn't want/expect.

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