Is it normal that i look at gore as a coping mechanism

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Before you get into that psychological stuff, I mean I have severe bpd, and I usually look at gore as a way to distract myself from feeling abandoned and alone. I tried other stuff but it doesn't give me the same feeling. Sometimes it makes me feel unreal and I would look into professional help but my mom is horrendous and will blame me for being a awful person but I don't think that's the reason why?

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  • ilovetoiletrolls
    9 years ago

    I look at people wiping out on skateboards and stuff on youtube to make myself feel better sometimes...I didn't even realize that was what I was doing until I noticed when I was really down, I'd look up that stuff. I have depression too but not sure if it's bipolar or not. I'd say it's normal. Makes you feel better only temporarily so it's not a good form of therapy. You should see a therapist. I am looking into that right now actually.

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  • squirrelgirl
    9 years ago

    I thought I was the only one who did this! I don't have BPD but I do have other mental illnesses. Sometimes when I get disturbing intrusive thoughts about harming myself/other people or when I start feeling afraid of death (more so my mom's than my own), I will look at guro (anime gore) or even read erotic gore stories in order to desensitize myself to it and try to find beauty in death.

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    • gunchameleon
      9 years ago

      I sometimes have intrusive thoughts, but it's usually pretty tame depending on how I feel.
      I mean, I try to find something else to do, like art, but y'kno how that can turn out considering that I prob will end up drawing gore.

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  • Ellenna
    9 years ago

    Surely you've already had professional contact if you have a diagnosis of bi=polar? If so, are you on medication for it or what?

    Your mother would blame you from getting professional help for such a serious disorder? That IS horrendous, can you get some support elsewhere?

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    • gunchameleon
      9 years ago

      Originally I went to get professional help when I was self-harming, but my psychiatrist also noted that I was showing symptoms of bpd and that it might have been the overall cause for my depression and anxiety. I would definitely go back to get medication but my mom absolutely believes that i don't need something manmade to help me get better which makes no sense considering the fact that there isn't really anything else to help me. Whatever the hell she believes in is actually hurting me in the end, which is the problem since I don't have a choice now. The only way to change her mind is to either commit suicide or at least attempt.

      I don't really have any support, maybe a couple of friends but I only burden them with all of this.

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      • Ellenna
        9 years ago

        Please please please don't kill yourself or even attempt it, you might be successful without meaning to.

        How old are you? Old enough to get yourself independent somehow? That's a really bad environment for you to be in: your mother is ignorant and cruel.

        If you do have bi-polar then I'd think medication is the only answer: depression itself can often be minimised without medication, I'm doing it myself at the moment, but bpd is a different thing altogether.

        I reckon if whatever you look at on the screen helps you cope and isn't doing you any harm either short or long term, then if that's the only thing that helps, keep doing it until you can get away and get long term help

        I wish you all the best

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  • Riddler
    9 years ago

    What I do

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