Is it normal that i like when mu boyfriend, hits me and yells at me?

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My boyfriend has lately gotten very abusive, and I am too afraid to leave him, and added to that, I don't want to. I get really turned on when he hits me so it leaves a mark, and I feel good when people ask about the bruise. I like it when he yells at me and when he forces me to have sex even though I don't want to. I sometimes tell him not to have sex with me, just so he can force me into the bed. I think it's weird, but also a little normal. I don't really have any traumas from my past, other than being raped by a family member when I was 4, which I don't remember, (but I remember some scenes though). I feel like there's a connection, but then again, I don't. I know I should really leave him, and that at one point, it will be really serious, so I am determined to leave, but then again. Is it normal that I get turned on by abuse, both sexual and physical?

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  • nikkiclaire
    6 years ago

    I don't know about the physical stuff but I fantasize about being raped quite a lot. There is a scene in an old movie The Accused, where Jodie Foster gets raped in a bar while everyone cheers it on. Right now that is my biggest fantasy. It gets me off just thinking about that hapenning to me.

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  • Tinyprince
    6 years ago

    It's common for rape victims to develop a rape fetish. I have one. But what you're experiencing isn't normal or safe.

    Leave him immediately and join a bdsm community.

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