Is it normal that i like sucking cock?

I am an old guy, 64. I spent my life as a married man, or a very married man as I used to joke. 40 years married to the same woman. I never cheated on her with one of her friends or sisters, though they were occasionally interesting to me. The thought passed my mind though it didn't appear to have occurred to her sisters minds. I was a baptist deacon and other things like an elder in the Faith Evangelical Church.
After our seventh child and our sex life stopped I started going to Zorba's sex shop in Scottsdale Arizona to watch guys getting blowjobs from young girls. A guy would look through the little window that Zorba's has between the booths pointing to his mouth like he wanted to give me a blowjob. Got a few blowjobs there from other guys as I continued watching the porn. I came right into the guy's mouth, always a different guy that I had never seen before. This accelerated over the course of several years.
My Baptist deacon part of me felt awfully guilty about having done that horrible thing right into a guy's mouth and all. I hated queers as my religious part of me demanded.
I eventually accepted some cum in my own mouth as I had begun sucking on the random cock from time to time and it was time for me to be on the receiving end of the transaction. I was finally accepting a penis and eventually ejaculate right on into my mouth. But there it was just the same. So I swallowed it. Cum doesn't taste like asparagus or honey or anything at all. It is like he spit in my mouth and I swallowed it. No big deal.
Now I am looking for a Portland penis to come to my little one bedroom apartment in Portland Oregon and let me suck on it until it convulses and ejaculates in my mouth, or suck on me until the same thing happens to his mouth.It might be my religious background I really like the convulsing and ejaculating part.
Why do I like it so much? It might be my religious background. It is so dirty, so very very dirty!
I really love it!