Is it normal that i like a no chances relationship?

Well, I'm asexual, just to set that up.

There's this guy, sort of famous (although mainly through a cult following), and I keep having fantasies about meeting him, dating him, marrying him... it's a bit obsessive.

(It's Vinny from Vinesauce by the way.)

He's a bit 'too old' for me, and since I'm asexual, I used to be a boy, etc, I don't think he'd even think about it for a second even if I met him in real life and became his friend.

But I still want to try.

Is that normal?

I actually really want to try, I want to like, find one of his lesser friends, become close to one of them and eventually meet him through that person, and... well, I already have a scrappy plan, even!

But the only chance I have is if he'll just go with it; if, like I did, he'll take a gamble and hope for the best.

Which based on human nature, he probably won't.

AM I NORMAL YES OR NO