Is it normal that i like a girl from 7th grade when i'm 17 and a girl?
Okay so lately I've been thinking about this situation and it seems that is beyond society's acceptance because not only do I like another girl but she's like 3-4 years younger than me and apparently that's borderline of pedophilia or something.
I go to a catholic church so all the grades are together in the same school, and I saw this girl one time and instantly fell in love with her without knowing really anything about her, to later finding out that she was in 7th grade and apparently she must be around 13-14.
Is it really that wrong? I mean I don't plan on doing anything to her, but the idea of dating just seems to appealing because I really like her. I've also never liked any other younger girls because they just seem childish and immature, but she's different because not only does she not like she is in that grade(explains my confusion) but also she seems more mature and everything, so no way I like anyone else in her grade.
Also I've kinda been reading fictional stories about a character who's a freshman and another one who's a senior and they fall in love and everything, but people tell me that's way different than my situation. And also I don't know if I'm being influenced by those ideas and thoughts and that's why I'm making my own idea.
But also there's the problem that it seems that I'm the one making everything up because recently she's been like avoiding me. I mean I've never talked to her or anything, but I'd like to do it and I've been thinking of ways to approach her and become her friend without coming off as being creepy and stalkerish but it just doesn't seem to work. The only times I see her are before school and after school and she tends to go all the way around school just so she can be away from me and I don't understand why because we've only really made eye contact like twice and before that I didn't even know she existed so I just find it very disappointed that if she already feels that way without even knowing me that maybe she wants nothing to do with me and I should just back off. I mean I would completely back off and get over my crush for her if that's what she really wants, but there's this little hope inside me that maybe she could feel the same way about me but it's silly since it's just a really weird situation and obviously if I was her I would be creeped out too, but I just don't want to stop liking her because those kind of feelings are the ones that give me hope and actually make me want to go to school and live through the day which I know it's bad because I'm dependable of it but I just don't know.
What should I do?