Is it normal that i latch onto teachers of mine as if they were family?
Before I even get into this, I gotta clarify a few things about myself.
I'm a senior in high school (and of age, I'm 18). I deal with a multitude of mental health and other issues due to past traumatic events in my life. I keep composed a good amount of the time, and I'm glad to say I've been coping better than ever I have before.
Due to this site's ToS, I don't think I can say (or would like to say) what I was a victim of in specific, but it does involve different forms of child abuse.
Anyways, due to that, I often found myself in childhood latching onto teachers I had because they treated me better than the adults I had in my life. In a sense, they were like the loving parents/family members I never really had.
As I got older, I stopped doing this as much but still had close relationships with instructors. However, this year, now that I'm leaving school eventually and stuff, this kind of attachment and feeling came back again.
Two teachers I've had for multiple years are the subject of this platonic/familiar-type affection/attraction (?). One was my history teacher one year, and now is currently my economics teacher. He's always a delight to be around... he came across as a cool uncle-type of guy. What especially kinda drew me to admire him was that we both dealt with an abusive mother (he;s talked about this to me before in a discussion about psychology and his abuse) and love to write prose and poetry. I couldn't help but to see myself in that, and one thing led to another. I'm currently a member of a club-type of thing he runs for former/current gifted students and it's a joy to be in, even if people aren't joining much... yet.
The other teacher is my former journalism teacher, now yearbook advisor. She's like... the mom I never had. She's always supportive she gave me the care my mom never really did? She's also tomboyish and we share a lot of same thoughts and she even admitted to me that she saw a lot of herself in me... and I felt the same.
Both of them have gave me praise and support and I'm grateful for it.
I sound... ridiculous. I know a parental/famililar bond is likely never to be made between any of us, but I still can't help to be attached that way.
I'm an adult now- barely one, but an adult definitely- I feel embarassed even admitting this, but I can't help it.
Is it normal for me to feel this way? What should I do?