Is it normal that i know i have no impact on anything that matters

3 things: 1st thing: Most depressing IIN ever.; 2nd thing: You should watch 'Pay It Forward' or 'The Butterfly Effect'.; 3rd thing: It's ok to feel like that sometimes. Just remind yourself of all the good times you've had and the funny stuff that's happened in your life and you'll remember that's life's worth living! :-)

Even if my life did matter to someoe else, that other person doesn't matter either

You need to watch the move "the butterfly effect" and I think you'll understand how important you are. Every liitle thing you do slightly changes something, that slightly changes something else, and so on until the change is huge. Like a ripple in water

Your going to get a girlfriend and want to live

I completely relate to what you're talking about. I felt the same way for over 3 years. I've worked on changing that but it does still comes back when I'm low.
A psychologist friend told me a lot of young people go through this, specially around 21-22 years of age. So it might be normal, or maybe just another symptom of the messed up world we do live in.
One thing, out of a lot of other things, that helped me get over feeling like that is trying to better understand love in its greater sense.
All the best. I feel your pain, all too well.

You r just one person but if everypne thought the way you do and wanted to commit suicide then the universe would be in a far worse place

Well the fact that you're actually concerned about this puts you above a LOT of other people who just suck up resources with nothing to offer in return. Y don't you do something that you think will help

I think it's good you're thinking. I don't share your point of view, though. Life is a pointless adventure - make it as you will or can. The entirety of your life will always be yours, and you'll never have anything else, nor will there be another exactly like it. Maybe it's boring but life is pretty boring.

I hope you don't just bury those thoughts away and that they evolve.

Sounds like u need som heavy antidepressants

@Shed505 it's not like I'm trying to save the world it's just that I am stuck in this mndset of "nothing I have ever known matters" i have never tried to be an outstanding person or change anythging really out of my reach but I always look at earth as just another planet in the billions upon trillions upon decillions of other planets. It's pretty depressing

I can relate to what you say. I sometimes see humans as if i am loooking from space and we are just like little lichens on the face of the planet. However you can have an effect on the state of your mind. You don't have to achieve in order to validate your place on earth. You just have to be. I gave up trying to save the planet and started just being content which may sound defeatist or boring, but it beats running after the latest piece of plastic for me.

Your life might not matter to you, but it might matter a lot to someone else.

This is why we have religion and spiritual beliefs. The mindset of "you live and then you die" is too depressing.

I can relate to how you feel. It's like when I look up at the beautiful moon I feel hopeless, it's like in that moment I know what we are, and what that is is insagnificent. We are just as unimportant to the vast universe as bactria is on our skin. We take a shawer every day and never stop to think about all the life we just wipped out.