Is it normal that i have urges to kill people in atrocious ways ?

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I have never been a violent person; however, there are many times that I sincerely want to beat someone to a bloody pulp. Not anyone specific, preferably a person I don't know. Recently these thoughts have escalated from fighting to killing. Seriously, it scares me to think that my mind even generates these thoughts. But the fact is, it does; and I can't help but feel that it is something I want to do. I know it is terribly wrong, yet the urge is great. What makes it worse is the fact that I actually picture myself doing this, and it is always in some brutal manner. I have never been abused, I have very caring, loving family and friends, and I realize what I am saying is sick, but I can't seem to care when my mind is in that state. I know this cannot be "normal", but does anyone know what I am going through? Could it be a psychological disorder?

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  • Wendell
    11 years ago

    Become an executioner; the government could use people like you

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Fuck you.

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  • QTGirl
    11 years ago

    I have the same thoughts which have resulted in nightmares involveing family members. I have no advise but at least you're not alone, right?

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Yeah, it's difficult but we can make it through it.

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  • Shaung1
    11 years ago

    It could be OCD

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Well I do meet all diagnostic criteria for OCD...

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  • KeddersPrincess
    11 years ago

    Does it turn you on? If so, yo might have some sadism.

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      If you're being serious, then no. I get no pleasure from these atrocious thoughts. If you just wanted a laugh, fuck you.

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      • KeddersPrincess
        11 years ago

        I was being serious because I know I, myself, has a little bit of sadism.

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  • TuneFaced
    11 years ago

    How long ago did this Start for you?

    Same thing happened started to happen to me a couple years ago. Same family situation and everything. At some point 2 years ago it went from urges to want to kill a random person to for a second or two my imagination would play a trick on me and their face would look like something out of a Japanese horror movie (which are the most scary). As time went on this would last longer and longer. At some Point I actually started seeing "people" making totally distorted and horrifying faces which lead to eventually seeing flying demonic looking spirits screaming at me to kill everyone. The day that happened I blacked out and came to and I was in a room I didn't recognize. It ended up being 6 months after I saw the demonic figures and I had no idea where I was or even that I had a 6 month gap in my memory.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    you're not aggressive at all are you? saying fuck you all the time. maybe it is time for you to have a long hard think about your options

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    I'm just saying its dudes like you who kill someone's wife, gf, sister or loved one with an axe. Sort it out man

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  • cokopoof
    11 years ago

    I actually have had similar thoughts before. I talked to my therapist about it nd she told me it could be that my mind is just find a way to occupy itself when I'm bored. It's also somewhat common for passive aggressive people to think this way. I'm very passive aggressive and I think that's why I have those thoughts occasionally. It may just be the anger you don't express finding other ways to express itself in your thoughts.

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Definitely not a result of boredom in my case. I'd rather be bored than in that mood. It is very plausible that that is how I try to release my anger; I say and am perceived to be some happy go lucky guy, but that is because all of my emotions are bottled up internally. The only problem with that theory is that it doesn't truly release my anger, it occurs once my anger is at such an elevated level that it's difficult to control.

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  • pancakesorwaffles
    11 years ago

    Dexter?

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  • tehfoxyfire
    11 years ago

    I read in some psychology article once that these kind of thoughts ate actually therapeutic, especially off the person does not usually allow themselves or repress such negative thoughts, add long s you DON't act on them. It's like venting. Internal venting. Anyone else read about this stuff?

    how often do you have these thoughts, or rather the most important question, what triggers them in particular?

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      I do study many fields of psychology, but no, I have not heard of this yet. I do see what you're saying, but in my case, they do not feel therapeutic. They occur when I'm at my utter most emotional low points. I have been concerned for some time that I may have a mood disorder such as manic depression (bipolar), but from what I've read in the DSM, my episodes do not meet criteria for diagnosis. At least from what I can remember about my mental state. What normally triggers them is a combination of rage and sadness, usually resulting from me not accepting certain personal faults and past issues.

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    • tehfoxyfire
      11 years ago

      Lots of typos I know replying via phone

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    tell your loving family your innermost thoughts, have the courage to tell others and watch your world change in an instant, you need change i think (but what would i know thats just what i would do to warn others) do not! open the door, even if i beg do not open the door!! young frankenstein

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      I've always had trouble with expressing my true thoughts or emotions, even to my own family. Don't worry, I don't have it in me to actually kill another person.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    I was Just saying that serial killers think like you so take some responsibility. Good luck and fuck you ;)

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  • Afreedomnature
    11 years ago

    Hey, how many times can this guy say "Fuck you."? Let me count the times.... 5 times. Aww, is the poor little psychopath upset?

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  • danikamadrid
    11 years ago

    you need help. go turn yourself into a mental ward or jump off a cliff if you feel you cannot fight the urge to kill.

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Fuck you.

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  • kyanviado
    11 years ago

    I am thinking of killing you right now

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Fuck you.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    You are what's wrong with the world. Correct yourself

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    • Silivrin1
      11 years ago

      Now don't be mean! They said it scares them, they've identified that these urges are wrong. That's a very good thing!

      I think that this person definitely needs to talk to someone, preferably a professional about this. They can definitely help you to understand your urges and to control them.

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      • jeffy-j
        11 years ago

        Thank you. If I had the money, and a way to speak with a psychiatrist without my family knowing, I would. Unfortunately that won't happen.

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        • cokopoof
          10 years ago

          And therapist/psychiatrists aren't cheap... sometimes not even with insurance. I've thought of trying to kill myself so that it would be mandatory for me to go somewhere but I'm not really willing to go that far.

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    • jeffy-j
      11 years ago

      Fuck you.

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