Is it normal that i have this thought?
I am a 21-year-old boy. I started to hate living in this world and loathe humans in 16 years old, then I wanted to suicide cuz i am just a human, but i didnt do that cuz I thought I should destroy this world before i suicide. So i always thought how to wreck this world, then I think that if I can become a powerful man like a scientist to do some researches for producing humans' enemies, maybe i could reduce the human population, and even kill all humans.
So I got the motivation to study science and my life's meaning, and i won't want to suicide before I achieve my dream.
So is this thought i have normal?