Is it normal that i have no one to turn to?

I'm so sorry to hear it, perhaps your mother has some emphatic issues since she can't seem to understand?

It must be difficult being isolated... I'm not sure what would be best in your shoes, especially since you've been to so many therapists. Hm, you could always look more into your condition as well as the medication you're taking. If it doesn't work, that might be because your condition is caused by something different than "normal".

Try discussing that with your current therapist once you've researched around a bit. I know anxiety and depression can get pretty awful sometimes, so lowering that level a bit with some appropriate medication might help you in school. I guess the next step after that would be using your qualifications from school to surround yourself with more emphatic people. Maybe moving into another neighbourhood in the future, it depends on the people you meet.

Good luck with everything, I really hope you find some closer, more understanding people in life.

Perhaps try calling Childline and talking to them if you live in the UK? And you shouldn't feel lame for reaching out to people online, lots of people do it and it's sometimes easier than talking to someone who you know in real life.

Every day the same
A parade of blank faces
The constant drip...drip from the cavern roof
The cold indifference of the ancient rock...

I sort of feel that way.

I don't know how to change it though. I have ideas, but they're so hard. I keep trying things like exercise, eating Omega 3... they're doable and... in my mind... beyond you... you'll feel the changes and you won't even realize it unless you stop and think about it.

I'm reaching out for an imaginary hug! Are you reaching back for me?

I can relate to some of this although my situations different. I have been to a lot of therapists too and most of them aren't going to be able to help much in my opinion. The best people for advice are people who actually know you and if you can't talk to them I don't know how else someone outside can really understand anything. For me it has been hard to find good services because all the places that deal with that stuff are used to common issues but I need to go to get meds. I would just not take them but they have actually been helping me signifantly think clearer and I may be in jail without them.

The race is long, but in the end, it's only with yourself. Basically you have to concentrate on yourself, strengthening the self. You can see all the therapists in the world, take all the drugs in the world, but this battle is internal and must be fought from within. The drugs can make it worse and leave you with dependency or addiction. Therapists are quite often basketcases themselves. Or you may just not be able to relate to what they're saying. Only you know yourself.

Concentrate on what makes you happy, however minor or insignificant it may be. Do more of it. Improve your fitness, being fit gives you confidence and self esteem. Look on the net for natural remedies for anxiety, you will find quite a few. Eat better. Get into a better sleeping pattern. Make a list of compliments you've received, if any, and think of these with self conviction. Concentrate on all the positive points of your personality.
I wish you luck moving forward with your life.

Depression and anxiety is something I've been dealing with for years now. As well as some compulsive issues..
I have tried seeing many, MANY therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists and not one has seemed to help me. You just have to reach out to others despite the awkwardness and find someone you can talk about your feelings with. Change your routine, find beauty in the little things, and notice when your having negative thoughts and change it to a positive thought, get in the habit of doing this. I wish you the best, good luck.

I don't know what to say about therapists, they don't always work but 10 is quite a few...

I know what it's like to feel alone though. It sucks...

You can share your problems here. There are some very nice users here who wouldn't mind talking to you I'm sure.

Of course pharmaceutical medication isn't going to help (the pharm industry is a complete scam), things aren't caused by "chemical imbalances" in your brain. You have emotional problems that YOU need to find the source of, so that you can then figure out the solution. And in the meantime, there are many natural remedies that you can try. <a href="http://www.wellsphere.com/stress-management-article/the-nine-best-natural-remedies-for-depression/9902" rel="nofollow">http://www.wellsphere.com/stress-management-art...</a>

And as far as the having no one to turn to goes. You can NOT expect others to love you until you love yourself. Be happy with you, the things that make you unique, your personality, and exude confidence with yourself, and you will find people who are happy with you as well.

Go to your local mosque and talk to an imam.