Is it normal that i have no one?
ok, first i would have this as a poll, but idk what i sould put in the choices.
so, i am a 21 year old male, almost done with collage (keep failing one class), am a closest bisexual, and in a depression and i try and hid it from my family as best i can. i havent told any one, but there is really no one to tell. i have only one friend and i dont trust my family. i can barely say anything to my mother, i just dont want her to worry, my brother has his own problems being a teenager living with my over bearing, angry, childish, short to anger, and self proclaimed know-er of all but always the victim father. and yes i dont get along with my father. lets just say i'd rather not say much about what he does...or did, in the past to make me like this with him. i'll just say it was lie's and neglect on his part.
so i just want to know if its normal to have no one to go to. i mean, i think i have some people, but whenever i'm about to say something, i stop, and think i was about to make everything worse. i constantly lie to everyone to make them think im fine, but im starting to run out of lies. i just want to know if its normal to have these kinds of things going on in my life.
ps. i am constantly being told that i am yelling and seem to be angry. i dont see this, but when they point it out, they make me feel like im doing it on purpose, which only makes me believe that i can not go to them or they will yell at me.